she is sharp ankles
and rough elbows.
she is sunked eyes
and impassive brows.
she is glass bones
and cellophane skin.
she is burnt out lights
and broken windows.
she is ice-cold fingers
and trembling branches.
she passes through life simple, unnoticed, in a haze.
a fog rolls with her.
she feels painful and uncomfortable to the touch,
but unlike the experts say,
there's more on the inside,
if you were to really cut her open,
you'd find dead butterflies inside, too.
i feel it gnawing on my
skin,
leaving its bites everywhere.
not a piece of me unmarked,
unshown,
unbitten.
it shows on my torn lips,
and bleeding fingers.
it shows in my aching bones,
and my shaky breaths.
but it shows the most inside of me,
rattling around in a fury,
cracking me from the inside out.
darkness slowly seeping through
the cracks
it leaves,
in the sidewalks on my streets.
i'm not really scared to die.
looking forward to it, really.
i'm excited to see grass grow where my skin used to
be
and i'm excited for my last breaths to be someone ele's
first.
i'm excited to watch as the curls in my hair, become the
knots and twists in the trees.
i'm excited to see the blues of my veins melt away into the
blues of the sky, as night shifts into day.
i guess
i'm just excited
to become part of the world again.
When I was in the hospital
I was roomed with a schizophrenic
And she was the most gentle person I have ever met
There was a boy with a long deep slit across his neck
Who told very funny jokes
A girl who never spoke a word
Would draw the most beautiful pictures
The boy who shook with anxiety
Could hold the most intelligent conversations
Even the girl who screamed in her sleep and picked at her
skin
Had a heart the size of the ocean
We are not who you think we are