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do you not care at all,
or do you just not
realize how much you're hurting me?
 

I love us. » I loved us. » I miss us.

you grew your hair so i grew mine;
you said the past won't rest until we jump the fence and leave it behind.
then you cut your hair, and i never saw you again.
now the cities we live in could be distant stars,
but i search for you in every passing car.
♥

are you completely blind,
or do you just not want to see?     

❝I would rather be alone, than pretend that I feel fine.❞
-Win Butler, of Arcade Fire.

The fear keeps me moving,
but my heart beats so slow. 

AND SOMETIMES;
I  just  love  seeing  people in love. I know it sounds
a little weird, but it's not.  I like seeing people holding
hands; I like seeing two outcasts who don't look so
lonely  when  they're together.  I can't explain it, but
it  just  makes  me feel good inside, being able to tell
that  they  love  each other. It makes me feel warm,
just knowing  that  people  so  different  from what
society tells you to be can still  find  someone  who
appreciates them and wants to be with them.  And
sometimes I feel like when I catch a glimpse of two
people who look like they're in love...      I'm special.
I  feel  like  I'm  lucky  enough  to be  one of the few
people who's never experienced it,  but still knows

WHAT LOVE IS. ♥

I hate the person I've become.

wishing you were anywhere but here,
               you watch the life you're living

dissappear

sometimes   my   life   i   feel   it  has  no  purpose;
and  at  night  the feelings just swim to the surface.
everyone's calling at me, go and find your own kind;
they're screaming at me,     we don't need your kind.
i need the darkness, someone please cut the lights.