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When I got home, my mom was there.
"Why are you home early? Are you sick? You should've at least called."
"We got to skip school today because... Today is Drew's funeral."
"I understand."
I walked upstairs and put on a long-sleeved flowy black dress, and matching black high heels.
I french braided my hair and put on some eyeliner and dark red lipstick.
I groaned at my reflection in the mirror.
"Ugh, I look so goth."
But then I heard the strange voice again.
How can you care about how you look? You're going to your own boyfriend's funeral.
I ignored it and left the house.
I walked to Sasha Park.

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The burial was just starting when I arrived.
I took a seat next to Kendall and refused to look.
If I did, I would burst into tears.
Then the stupid voice came back.
Who cares? This is your boyfriend.
I didn't care what it said.
The voices don't control me. They don't exist.
After the burial was over, I walked over to Drew's grave and knelt down.
"I love you, Drew..."
I rummaged through my dress pocket and took out a heart shaped paper.
"I will always love you.
Drew Miner & Sophie Brown
June 21, 2010-November 16th, 2011" was written on it.
I layed it on his grave.
I felt a tear slide down my cheek.

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When everyone else left, I went back home.
I changed into pajamas and looked at the time.
7:22 PM.
I sighed and climbed into bed.
I didn't feel like doing anything else tonight.

thinking of you
chapter 3

I ent he next two weeks sitting in my bed, blasting music and crying.
The only reason I ever got up was to use the bathroom.
One day, my mom knocked on the door.
"Sophie?"
"The door isn't locked. Come in."
I heard the door creak open.
"Sophie, you need to go back to school."
"No, I don't."
"Yes, you do. I know it's hard... but..."
"Exactly. You know it's hard. So let me be a depressed idiot."
"Look, Sophie. You have to go. You need the education."
"No I don't. Buzz off."
She walked up to me, and snatched the iPod from my hands.
"If you don't go, you're not having this back."
"Ugh. Fine. I'll go."
"Good girl."
She handed back the iPod to me and I set it down on the nightstand.
I walked inside the bathroom and took an extra long shower.
I didn't even shower the past few weeks.
I must've smelled really bad.
After I got out I dried myself and blew dry my hair.
I put on some skinny jeans and a cardigan over my white tank.
I didn't really care how I looked, I just put on whatever I found.
How could I care about anything right now?
I grabbed the bag and left the house.

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As soon as I walked through the doors of the high school, people started welcoming me back.
Especially Kendall.
The second she saw me, she ran up to me and trapped me in a hug.
"OH MY GOD SOPHIE! YOU'RE FINALLY BACK! YOU HAD NO IDEA HOW MUCH I MISSED YOU!"
I remained silent.
I really couldn't come up with anything to say.
"Come on, let's get to class."
She grabbed my hand and pulled me to homeroom.
But then I bumped into Mr. Kennedy.
The principal.
Crap.

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"Sophia Brown, mind explaining why you have been absent for the last two weeks?"
"My boyfriend, Drew... He died in a car accident. I just couldn't get myself to come."
"Hmm... doesn't seem like you would lie about something like that. You are excused."
"Thanks."
I left the office and went back into homeroom.
I took my usual spot next to Kendall and my other friend, Nikki.
We talked for a bit before our teacher came in.
"Hello, class. As you may have heard, one of our students, Drew Miner, has recently passed away.
Today is the day of his funeral, which will be held at the Sasha Park. For this reason, all of our students
may not attend school today to go to the funeral. Anyone is welcome to stay if they wish."
Drew Miner.
My heart sunk when I heard that name.
I wanted to cry, but I couldn't.
"...I think I'll be going. Bye."
I brushed a tear away from my eye and walked out.

 

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