ForTheOneILove

Patience is key.

Stress is a silent killer.

The only reason why I'm not dead right now... Is because I would be breaking my promise... I said I'd never leave you, no matter what... and I mean it~ uvu

Broken

I'm scared.

Even in my dreams...

I can't let go...

I've given up everything for you and Im still giving up things now... I've been thinking about the future... I love you... and I want you... but if that means you're unhappy... then i'd rather you be happy elsewhere... even if it means I cant be happy...

I've had a horrible dream recently...

You probably dont want to hear it... but I'm gonna tell you anyway...

...

you died... and im attending your funeral...

i stand at your open casket... weeping tears on your still lifeless body... crying uncontrollably... i start to talk... i say things like "why... why did you have to go... I loved you... and i still do... i need you..."

then i lose all sense of calmness and i literally climb into the casket and cling to your cold lifelessness... i wont let go... even when people try prying me off of you... i cry and weep... i kiss your cold... pale skin...

until soon enough... they bury me with you... and i die right next to you... in your casket... clinging to your dead body... because i never want to let you go... ever...

I love you...

even in my dreams...

i cant let go...

I want you to be happy...

but im scared...

i might lose the love of my life...

No...

I can't go just yet...

I must be here no matter how much of a f-cking idiot I am... I'm still learning... I'm not perfect like you are... I still need to learn... I don't know you for long enough to know EXACTLY how to treat you... I learn every day... I can't let this petty thing take me away when im only just being schooled... I must pass the tests... I must learn... I want to be the best I can to you... so I will learn...

I'm not perfect... but at least I try...

remember... I'm still learning...

Someday... I would like to bear the ring...

but before I do that...

I must learn...

No matter what happens... I will always love you... my kitten...

Forgive me...

If I die tonight...