...but we can't be together.
My mother won't allow it. Today's our eight month
anniversary & I love him with all my heart. Never have I ever
had such strong & incredible feelings for a guy. He's not
just a guy; he's the most amazing guy that I've ever met.
He's sweet, cute, funny, he cooks, he's never yelled at
me, he apologizes for things he hasn't even done, he's
shy, & so much more! It was funny & mind blowing when i
learned that both of our birthdays are in May, we're both
Taurus' & have the same birthstone. He tells me stories,
& writes me poems. He writes poems; how many guys do that?!
We took things slow & it took into five months of our
relationship to have our first kiss. With every breath I took,
& every glance of him, I've fallen even harder. From
before we even began to date, we've had problems with our
parents. We had to sneak & lie & get in trouble a
numerous amount of times, but yet every time, we both believe it
is worth it. We planned to get married & name our daughter
Aria. We planned who would cook & clean & change diapers.
The smallest details to the biggest ones. He always there for me
even when he wasn't around. He loved me through my mood
swings & b*tch attacks. Not once through these eight months
has he broken up with me. He even bought me a promise ring for my
seventeenth birthday. So, why can't be we together? Well, I
can tell you in two simple words: his skin. He's African
American, but we are the same religion. My mother, however, fails
to acknowledge this & my feelings for him. I tried explaining
to her that his family is religious & willing to give us a
chance, but she wouldn't hear it. I am now a disgrace in her
eyes & she has told me to stop talking to him. For some time
I have considered it, but I've come to realize that she
can't always have things her way. & she can keep the
threats coming, but I'm going to do what makes me happy
because she isn't a saint herself. I just don't see why
the discrimination can't end. Honestly, he's the greatest
guy I've ever seen & he gives me more respect & love
than I deserve. If she wants to ignore this & crush my
happiness, well so be it. I'm going to continue what makes me
happy & if I have to lie, oh well. The only question in my
head is, is this the right thing to be doing? Am I really going
in the right direction? I have considered all possible
consequences of continuing this relationship & ending it. So,
I guess even though I know what I want, I just don't know
what to do.
love him & I always will.