I lost my best friend.
I saw this coming. I had two best friends. They became friends,
then best friends, then I fell out of the picture. I'm sure
lots of other people experienced this before, but I'm really
broken up about it. I got extremely jealous because I really only
had two friends. One was my really best friend 'ever.' I
only had two friends. Now they think nothing of me, except to
call me annoying. Sometimes they notice I'm sad and try to
comfort me, which I really appreciate. So I put on a happy face
like anyone would and pretend to brush it off. Afterwards, it all
goes back to 'normal.' I felt like nothing then, now I
feel like less than nothing. I just feel really messed up right
now. I have a lot of stress, and this just puts me over the
top.
If you read this, I'll sum it up now. I just wanna
list some examples to vent. I just really need someone to talk to
right now.
A lot of it is in 2 classes in school, because we all sit next to
each other. I sit next to my closer friend. We are arranged in
pairs in history. My other best friend sits next to me with an
aisle inbetween. My closer friend is always begging my other best
friend to switch seats.
Another time in history, of which reaaally hurt, the two of them
were talking about getting together later that day (again.) They
were talking about maybe inviting me. (I knew that was unlikely.)
They tried whispering, but it's pretty hard not to over-hear
when you're inbetween them. Of course in the end, only two
ended up going. It made me feel better knowing that they tried to
whisper and that they considered inviting me. It's fine with
me that they hang out after school, but they hang out all the
time. Outside of school, I only really get to hang out with them
only about once every few months or so. They hang out a few times
a week, (excluding video chatting.) They video chat almost every
day.
In short, I just feel replaced. I have one other friend that
actually seems like he cares. But he seems to only pay attention
to my two other friends. And to make the whole situation
even better, the three of them hang out sometimes.
I just feel really replaced and worthless. I just really needed
to vent.