FrancesElizabeth2

Yes i have the same number!

text me, i dont have your number, i got a new phone, otherwise I woulda texted you a while back!

no, i wasn't blaming you for everything, ive been busy too, and yeah, a lot has happened. I miss you, text me!!

Hey... you never texted me...

Thank you so much!
I'm home from the hospital but they're keeping Kenley there over night. Her breathing isn't stable and they're worried that if we took her home tonight, that when we put her to bed, she'll stop breathing. So, the doctors are watching over her tonight .
Aubree and I both have known that Kenley's breathing has been weird lately.. We took her in to the doctor a week ago and they said that she's just getting a cold, but last night, her eyes rolled back in to her head and she stopped breathing.
We don't know what caused it or whats going on yet.
thank you, Aubree and I both appreciate it.

oh no,
i didn't see your message
until today, how did the 200 medley go?

i was scared the first time i swam it
but just a couple months ago i swam
a 2.5 mile ocean swim... talk about scary ;p

dooooooooooooooooooooooooode,
tomorrow.
your house.
5-6 oclock.
k? k.

hi, would you mind reading the prolog to my story and giving me feedback?

Thank you

yeah i almost forgot yesterday too but then in the middle of the day im like am i forgetting something oh yeah

hahaa. Thanks!

If only I can explain in words the way her eyes lit up.. Hahaa. It was awesome. I took her out to eat, then she wanted to go to the movies and then I took her there and then she wanted to go to Gapper Rocks, which is like a cliff by water and you can sit there and look at the water and it's actually really pretty and we went there just when the sun was setting, it was beautiful. I have her the promise ring there and I told her, I can see myself spend the rest of my life with her and she said "I can see me spending the rest of my life with you too. I've never loved someone as much as I love you." and I put the ring on her finger.. She's my baby.. I love her so much.

It's going.. Just another day of waking up to a fight.
Seeing Aubree tonight. Going to give her that promise ring.

thanks:) that comment made me smile:)

I really hope they do.. I love micah and I wish I could see him around and I don't want him gone forever.. but to be able to sleep without having nightmares about it would be awesome..

I try every single night.. this is going to be a fight that I have to fight for a long time.. I'm not worried about it much, until I comment saying that I'm concerned about my own health because I'm so depressed.. I'm used to the nightmares.. I just hate sleeping to remember it all again .

I was talking to Aubree for 4 hours on the phone a little bit ago. I'm glad I heard her voice, I can't wait to see her.. I have a feeling tonight will just be as bad as normal.. again. I'm prepared to not get sleep, like usual.

I'm proud to say that he's my bro and I love him and miss him every single day and always will.
I'm going to give her the ring Saturday night when I take her out. I'm excited to see the look on her face. I love her so much.

I love her more than anything in the world. I'm so lucky to have a beautiful girlfriend like her. I don't want anybody else but her. Yeah, I'm taking her out and I'll give it to her there. She has no idea about it yet. But yeah, I don't want drinking to be my way of coping with things because I know it will only numb the pain for so long and I don't want to have to keep drinking and drinking too numb the pain.. I just want it all to disappear.
I have a picture up of Micah now.. /:

When it first happened, Aubree stayed as far away as she could from me.. She knew that this would take a toll on me.. that I would be completely different.. She told me that if I don't stop blaming myself, that she will leave me.. I've been with her for two years and 6 months.. I don't love any girl but her.. I am so in love with her, I'd take a bullet for her any day.. No matter what the situation is, and I'm right.. and I know that i'm right and she says something wrong, I don't even argue it with her.. I love her, I hate seeing her in pain.. I do.. I'd do anything to take away any pain she has.. See, She lost her brother to a car accident when she 14 and he was 17. He was coming to pick her up from basketball practice and some guy went over the center line and hit her brother head on and he didn't make it to the hospital. She knows what it's like to lose someone who's close to you.. I feel like all this would be so much easier on me if I wasn't there to watch him suffer.. His panic in his voice, when he kept yelling.. It haunts me.. It's miserable.. I don't want to face that anymore.. I drank for the first time the other night.. I don't want that to be my way of coping with a situation because I know that it's not right and I don't want to lose my baby girl over a stupid choice.. but nobody understands how desperate I am to get out of this pain I am in.. Him yelling out my name to help him.. The police sirens.. The drive to the Police departments.. It never fails to upset me when it comes to my mind.. Ever.
I want to be happy with my girlfriend, i love her to no end.. I bought a promise ring and I'm going to give it to her when I take her out.. I love her so damn much.. But I don't want to lose her over this.. but not even her understands the pain this is causing me.. It's haunting me.. I even have dreams where Micah talks to me, and he told me to come be with him.. I died in my dream.. I was going in to this bright light where micah was standing and I was so close to grabbing on to his hand.. Al the sudden I woke up and It felt like I completely stopped breathing..
My mind isn't working the way it did and it scares me.