FrankConnor

Status: alive... sort of
Joined: August 7, 2012
Last Seen: 6 years
user id: 323352
Gender: M
FOR ONE SCAR LESS
I only follow for a good quote, so follow for a follow doesn't work with me.
If you have some good quotes though, I will read every quote you write.

Who am I?

I am not Frank Connor.
He doesn't even exist as far as I know.
*** update***
I googled Frank Connor, he does exist and is a big cheif in a company called Textron. XD

*** end update ***

I AM Frank Connor
He is Part of who I am.

The part of me...
... that likes to burn himself
... that saw death
... that hurts all people around me
... that's suicidal
... that is unhappy
... that likes being unhappy

But it is not all that I am.
I have another part.

The part of me...
... that loves all music
... that plays the guitar
... that grows roses
... that fell in love
***Update***
...And got heartbroken
*** End update***
... that loves life
... that wants to get better

I am 17 years old, 
and I've had quite a life so far.
I am in therapy,
since I have a manic depression and a light form of shizofrenia.
I do not have a split personality.
I'm also kleptomanic.

I'm willing to tell you all this, because none of you know me anyway.
and even if you do, you don't know it's me.

I live to help others, so if you have a problem, I'm here.
I often know exactly what you've been through.

if you read all this, there are only 2 possibilities.

Or you really care.
Or you recognise yourself.

Anyway, I appreciate it.
Thank you.

if you want to know your by my side, and I'm not alone,
don't give me those cheesy I feel so bad for you quotes.

It's enough for me if you say:
I know who you are.

just comment that, and I'll know I'm not alone.

Thanks for reading this, again

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Imjustme* 6 years ago
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Hi, its been a very long time since we last spoke and which you wont remember me from all the other people you have helped and befriended amongst this website but I remember you, I actually think about how your doing from time to time and I guess life gets in the way for all of us some good some bad but from reading all the other comments on here from last year I hope you have made a progression and that you are doing okay, at least a little bit. I hope I will get to talk to you some time soon, that would be really nice actually xxx
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FrankConnor 6 years ago
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Hey,
It's been a long time indeed, and I do remember you. I remember almost everyone here.
I still keep tabs on the site, I just don't post anymore. I've had a very tough time the past two years, but I do think I have started to struggle through it. as to where I am now, the best description would be a cliff. Behind me is the world I used to know, the world I grew up in. Ahead of me is nothing but the unknown. But down below, at the foot of the cliff, in the middle of that unknnown, stands a person I trust and love unconditionally, and she says she'll catch me. The world I grew up in was not a good place for me, So I'm getting ready to jump, and that's a good thing, scary as it may be. I see hope in my future. What a bout you? Doing ok?
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Imjustme* 5 years ago
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Scary can be a good thing, no one knows what will happen
but I am sure your future will hold an abundance of happiness
because you truly deserve it as does everyone. It seems crazy how long its been even in the past 5 months since I wrote that I think I have changed. I guess a lot of things happen but I’m okay thanks, I have definitely done a lot of growing up. Both good and bad has happened but I think we all know thats just how life is, just wonder what else it has to bring..
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The Chosen One* 7 years ago
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Frank
Wow it's been so long
Do you remember me?(:
How have you been,lovely xo
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FrankConnor 7 years ago
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I do remember you, It's been a while indeed.

I've been horrible, the past few months, but I'm back in therapy, so I'm hoping I'll stabilize again

and you?

how have you been?
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The Chosen One* 7 years ago
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That makes me so happy,aw
It has been such a long time.


That's terrible,if you need to talk,I'm here.

I've actually starting councilling this week
And well my parents found out about my cutting
And things have been quite wow lately
But I'll be fine,thankyou.
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FrankConnor 7 years ago
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I broke down completely in front of my parents, so I'm not allowed to be alone anymore.

I have to sleep with someone, at all times. For the moment, I'm staying at my brothers place, But I guess I won't be returning to my studio any time soon.

and I'm glad you've started councilling.
It can do a lot.
Most depends on the therapist though, if he/she works for you.

Every therapist/councellor/Psychiatrist has a different way of working, and you need to find one that works for you.

Maybe this one will be perfect already, you'll know in a few weeks.

Don't judge them after the first session, wait a few weeks, but if it's not working, don't quit on counceliing, onlly on your councellor, and look for a better one.

I've had 9 therapists until now, and only 3 of them were actually good.
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The Chosen One* 7 years ago
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I am so sorry
It will get better
This is for the best,okay?

What studio?;-;
Being alone is the worst anyways

Thankyou
I guess it can
Yeah

The councilor is alright:/

Thankyou for the advice.

I'm happy for you
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FrankConnor 7 years ago
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I got a place of my own this year, since I was going to the university... a tiny studio, just a bedroom the size of a shoebox, an even smaller bathroom and a kitchen/living area study area. it was like, really really small, but it was my own spot.

But I wasn't happy there. and since I'm not allowed to be on my own anymore...

you said the councilor is alright :/

so, what does that mean?

is he patient?

does he ask enough questions, but not too many, and if he asks them, are they the right ones?

advice is the least i can do, I just hope it is of some help to you
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oddfuturee 8 years ago
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I know who you are.
I'm not gonna say I feel bad because I know you probably won't want to hear that
but I want to let you know if you ever want anyone to talk to , you can always come
to me.I may not have been through exactly what you are going through , though
I was having suicidal thoughts and self-harmed but thankfully I got the help I needed.

I may not be a therapist but I'll listen and if you ever feel depressed just know that I care.
& If you ever are having suicidal thoughts just remember that there are places to see, people
to meet, stories to tell, new things to discover. A thousand moments are ahead of you. Some
are good , and some may be sucky but I promise it's better to live a long life than to rot 6 ft
from the ground. you're worth it and you were given this life because you are gonna do something
remarkable in life. As unloved as you may feel someone will deeply love you. May today , tomorrow,
or already. But, that day will come and you will be happy again. Again, I'm not gonna feel bad for you
or tell you im so sorry because I know you'll fight depression and I know you'll win this battle. ily
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FrankConnor 7 years ago
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Fact is, I don't want to die, I just don't enjoy living, at all.

I self harm, because it's a way of coping, and because I lack care about myself.

eating, taking care of myself, even showering, it's all a front, so people think I'm a happy, normal person.

I don't care. I live because my life can make others happier.

My own life isn't of importance.

And even though I know that's a wrong way to think, I still haven't been able to convince myself otherwise.

I'm back in therapy though, so Don't worry.

It was a friendly offer, and maybe I'll take you up on it one day.

You stay strong,

And don't die on me,

Frank
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booImMewMew2 8 years ago
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Oh wow, uni sounds stressful. I test well, but I don't think I'd do well on that particular math test. I'm totally not able to think right now because my sister is shouting in the background and my brain isn't functioning... shes obnoxious... yet I love her... Anywhoo, I really hope I can get on more often.. Unless I can give you another site I'm addicted to, give you more of a chance to actually talk to me?
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*silvergirl* 8 years ago
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I wonder what they would think if they knew about what I did when Im home alone


people are horrible

you don't deserve to be treated badly
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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Depends on them. They would all feel guilty, yet the way they respond to it may vary. Some will blame you, and make it even worse, others will leave you alone, and even others will apologise, see what they did wrong and try to make up. One of my best friends nearly had me killing myself about 6 years ago. When he found out he completily changed, and He's one of the most loyal friends I have now.

Not all bullies are bad people, some just don't realise the consequences of their actions.

And neither do you deserve to be treated badly.
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*silvergirl* 8 years ago
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You seen really smart


I have too many scars for a little girl
My friend said they were ugly
My mum said no one could love me

I don't deserve it
But it's better me than someone else
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justkiddiing 8 years ago
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ik heb hem al weggejaagd...ik denk dat het een nieuw record is
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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Ocheere. :-(

Ander en beter?
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justkiddiing 8 years ago
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hij was niet bijzonder, ik zag hem graag, maar ik hield niet van hem, het stoort mij gewoon dat ik mijn finnesse kwijt ben, ik kan ze krijgen maar niet houden...
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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Eerlijk gezegd, da vindk nie abnormaal. Als et ne jongen is me wa hersens en wa inzicht in mensen, da merkt ie wel ofda je hem echt graag ziet of nie. Als ie bij u blijft, ist ofwel omda ie gwn zo zot van u is da ie hoopt toch nog een kans bij u te maken, ma da blijft nie duren, want vroeg of laat geven ze toch op, ofwel omda ze ook nie om u geven en der gwn een bonus aan zien.

GY moet gwn leren van emoties te hebben, mooie emoties. Ge hebt een groot hart, ma ge vult et me verdriet en een vorm van zelfmedelijden.

Er is daar plek om echt iemand graag te zien, ma ge wilt et eigenlijk nie, of da gevoel krijg ik toch.

DAmn, ik had echt psychologie moeten kiezen...

achja, als burgie nie lukt...
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justkiddiing 8 years ago
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kheb mijn soulmate gevonden, we gaan vriendjes worden of hij het nu wilt of niet. myn psych ziet geen probleem meer metmij,ze zegt dat ik niet meer hoef af te komen, dat het goed is nu... ik weet het niet
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*silvergirl* 8 years ago
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That comment
I've been bullied my entire life and I've had a lot of issues with suicide attempts and self harm

But that comment

Thank you

Idk but thank you
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The Chosen One* 8 years ago
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OMG frank!! Hello:) how are you?
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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I'm ok.

I failed my exam though.

Really failed.

So I'll have to redo it in june I'm afraid... :/
And how are you doing?
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The Chosen One* 8 years ago
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That's good!
Oh xc
Don't worry,I'm sure you'll pass it,I bet you were just really freaking nervous D:

Oh,I hate RE-DOS-.-
&im amazing thankyou
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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You're welcome.

I'm glad you're doing good.

And I was quite freaking nervous, but it was because I had not studied enough, and I knew it. Still I didn't think it would be that bad...

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The Chosen One* 8 years ago
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Yay^.^

Thankyou!!

I bet/:
Well maybe you need to out some things aside and study a little harder,just to you go and pass it,then you can do what you want:)
What grade did you get?
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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6/20. That's 30 % I need 50% to pass.

We don't work with A B and C grades and such.

You get points for the amount of questions you get right.

And I messed up quite badly... It was maths :(.

And I have a lot of math classes
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SkittlesGirl 8 years ago
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You probably think I'm stalking, but I failed my Maths exam too. Trust me it was the first time I ever failed. And I started crying when I got home.
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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And I don't think you're stalking me, XD
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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I have 5 different math courses this year. And that was the easiest...

I hate college XD
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SkittlesGirl 8 years ago
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My exam was the easiest too! But I failed anyways :/ sucks. But I'm gonna try harder for my next exams. And thank god you don't think, I'm stalking you XD
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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Believe me, I've had an actual stalker once, you're not even close.

So don't worry.

Just don't start calling me in the middle of the night, ok? XD
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The Chosen One* 8 years ago
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It's not too far off the goal:))

I see o:
Oh I hate maths xc

OHHH! Just keep trying your best!!
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SkittlesGirl 8 years ago
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I like your quotes, so therefore I am following you. Thank you.
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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You're Welcome
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*silvergirl* 8 years ago
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Your profile
Idek why
It touched me....
Hi my name is Victoria
You can call me Tori or Turtle
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blueskysandarainbow 8 years ago
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Hey, remember me? I doubt it ngl, we haven't talked in a while. How are you?
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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Don't worry, I remember you. I'm doing fine, I guess.

College, finding my own place, so that's good.

It's just, college is damn hard XD
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blueskysandarainbow 8 years ago
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Only I guess? That certainly doesn't sound too good. Urgh I can not even be bothered to go on to uni or college or whatever, I think I might just get a job when I leave school
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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Well, I find it a waste if people with a brain don't use it. and I have to stand by my own principles don't I?

I have a very analytical mind, a problem-solver, if you know what I mean, so I'm studying engineering.
and I like it, it's a challenge. A tough one, since I already failed my first exam.

But I really enjoy using my head, getting a problem I can't fix. The only issue is all the maths you need...XD
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blueskysandarainbow 8 years ago
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Ooh sounds fun;) well my minds pretty messed up any way so school and learning doesn't really suit it ngl
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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So is mine, but It's still capable of surprising me from time to time
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blueskysandarainbow 8 years ago
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Well its great that you have found something that you feel like you can do. I doubt I'll be doing any exams any time soon, not with everything that's been going on tbh
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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Wanna talk about it?
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blueskysandarainbow 8 years ago
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Meh. My boyfriend passed away recently in a car accident and he was like one of the only things that were keeping me sane so it's been very hard
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*compassionate soul* 8 years ago
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Hey there, Frank. It's been a little while, and I know it's cuz you've been busy. I just was wondering how you've been doing, and how college is going and such.
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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I've been ok, just been having panic attacks sometimes, I'm gonna try and find oout the cause, because they really are quite a hindrance. As for college, it's going not so well. I've got my first exam tomorrow, and I'm afraid I'm going to fail miserably. I've started stufying way too late, and I feel horribly unprepared. So now I'm too stressed out to sleep, even though, the exam is in about 8 hours.
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*compassionate soul* 8 years ago
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Oh boy, those panic attacks probably aren't any fun.....I hope you are able to find out the cause of them. And ah, well I hope you do well on your exam...good luck with that hon.
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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Exam went ok, I think I might even just pass, so that would be great.

For the panic attacks, I've made an appointment with my old shrink, we'll see what she has to say about it
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*compassionate soul* 8 years ago
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Ah, well that's good news then, if you do pass, I mean.

And ah, alrighty. Hopefully it's not too hard to figure out. Are you on any type of anti-anxiety meds?
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booImMewMew2 8 years ago
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A mirical, I got on here and I just felt really nostalgic, I haven't been on in a long time, and when I 'm I don't really talk to people anymore, but its good to hear from ya again! How is UNI going? Parting enough?? I'm doing well enough I suppose, and you?
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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No time for such things as partying, I've got exams in a week already.

it's a rehearsal of all the math I've seen in my life up until now. Or what they think I should have seen...

And then the real stuff starts...
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booImMewMew2 8 years ago
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Hey, long time no talk. Remember me? Don't blame ya if you don't, I did disappear for a while. Sorry about that, talk when you get on maybe?
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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I do remember you actually. And I do think I dissapeared even longer then you did. about 4 months I believe....

You're notification sent me here actually XD.

I don't have a lot of spare time (university) but I'll try to check in once a week or so.

How've you been?
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The Chosen One* 8 years ago
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OMG frank c:
I miss you :)
Hope your doing alright :)
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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I'm doing great actually, 7 months with my girlfriend, university (work hard, party harder XD), good friends...

My mom's still a drunk with some mental issues, and My dad's still a dick, but I'l survive. I won't need them much longer...
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AwkwardlyAnna 8 years ago
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hey you, i don't know if you remember me, but you used to like some of the quotes on my old profile and I came across one of your comments today, about a piano, and it led me here.
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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Sorry, I don't. Sorry I didn't reply too, I haven't been here in a few months. It's because I'm in the university now, So I don't have that much time anymore...
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AwkwardlyAnna 8 years ago
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the old profile was anonymous, so it's okay :)
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The Chosen One* 8 years ago
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Rawr!
Heyaahz
I just realised
I never ever saw dat pic of yooo
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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Indeed you did not. Sorry I haven't been on the past few months, It's because I'm in College now, so I don't have that much time left...
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The Chosen One* 8 years ago
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Yay cx
It's okay
I missed you(:
How've you been.
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Imjustme* 8 years ago
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Hey, happy belated birthday. hope u have been alright
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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Yeah, I'm doing quite alright. How have you been?
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Dudeonthedancefloor 8 years ago
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Howdie. Jodie sent me to talk to you coz she says you two get along. I'm John btw, her boyfriend
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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Hey, nice meeting you.

I gotta warn you I'm not on that often, but I get mail notifications if you leave something here, so you can be sure I'll read and respond as soon as I can. Life's just kinda... hectic lately.
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Dudeonthedancefloor 8 years ago
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Haha cool dude. What's been happening?
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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School, where I really gotta do something to pass math, my girlfriend, who gobbles up all my spare time (not that I mind), my dad, who's an , y mom, who has a few problems, and all those other things in life, and My guitar project which has to be finished by the end of the month, oh and it was my birthday yesterday. So I'm just busy I guess.
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Dudeonthedancefloor 8 years ago
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Sounds a lot! What was that about your parents? Happy birthday for then!
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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my parents are divorced, and my dad can be slightly agressive at times (stupid censoring). My mom's an alcoholic and has shizofrenia.. So she's not that easy to live with. When she's not drinking or have delusions she's a wonderful person though. And in all I have to say that both my parents do love me, in their own way. It's just that sometimes, It's impossible to deal with them... It's tiring you know...
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Dudeonthedancefloor 8 years ago
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Sounds rough man, im sorry. Parents can be difficult sometimes, I mean my moms boyfriend has chucked me out a couple of times and I don't get on with him well but as long as you do know they love you and you love them then it is worth the effort, im sure
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The Chosen One* 8 years ago
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Heyy :)
We haventy talked in ages
Hope your okay
Hope you and the gf is good ;D
Thought it let you know im leaving and thans for helping me with David :)
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FrankConnor 8 years ago
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Okay then, It was nice knowing you. I'll be on every now and then here if you'd ever need me. Just leave a comment and I'll do my best to answer as soon as I can.
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The Chosen One* 8 years ago
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Haha it was Nice knowing you too. I'v decided imma stay. Witty is my everything I cant leave it<3 And okay thats cool thanks. Im here if you need me too. And thankyou :)
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