and all of a sudden, it just
hit me. it hit me with
a sickening sense of
reality.
and all it took was one sentance spoken by a
friend. "yeah, i think hes the leader
of the group." of
course. it seems so
obvious now. her following sentance
spoke
the words that were now
swirling around in my head, filling
me with a sense
of dread. "hes pretty much
unattainable." how could i have
been so
stupid? i
mean, in the beginning of this school
year, he wasn't the leader. but
where had
i been when he had made this
obvious advancement to leader-of-the-pack? i had
been blinded. blinded by my love for him. in my head, he was
still this cute little,
curly-haired, popular, but not
too popular, boy that i
had a crush on. but now
that my eyes have been opened, i now
realize that with his new buzz cut, he has
transitioned into a tough, hot guy
who flirts with all the girls, and is the leader
of all the guys in our grade. i wish i had
realized this in the beginning. but now,
its
too late. im in too
deep. im stuck with this
mindboggling crush on
him,
and the
sad truth is,
he will
never
be mine
probably my most succesful vent
ever