GildedNightmare

Some goodbyes are forever.

I dont remember the date, I wish I did, but I do remember that day. It was homecoming night and you were at the game with my sister. You were wearing a grey sweater and your hair was down, hardly any makeup on your face. And you looked gorgeous. You were comparing hands with my sister when I met you under one of the giant lights that lit up the game. I used this as an excuse to feel your hands and hold it up against mine. I remember you made fun of my nails and my hands and commented on how "they were really girly". We started flirting although I didn't notice it. I remember looking at you and you looking back, and in that moment, when my eyes met yours, I was surprised to see so much sadness in them. A girl that pretty should never have eyes like that. They told me many things, the pain you hid, the smile you hid behind, and the burdens place upon you by an unkind world. Those eyes that held so much sadness also held so much beauty, I fell in love with those eyes, they were never the same, sometimes blue, sometimes green, sometimes their usual hazel. I could never tell. Just like I could never understand you, you were shy but then you weren't, you were mad and then you weren't. I wasnted to understand you so bad, so when you texted my sister I answered, you had just broken up with your boyfriend and I thought maybe I'd have a chance. We started talking and in a few months were were dating. But I messed that up and we broke up, I still stayed though, always trying to get you back. Finally in March I got my chance and we were together again. I told myself form then on that I'd never let you go, that I'd try my hardest to always keep you by my side. And although we've had our ups and downs, our fights and our moments, nothing that anyone could do could every make me regret every moment I've spent with you. I know I'm not the perfect guy or the sweetest guy but I want you to know that I love you.

How stubborn are these scars that they won't fade away...

It's not the end that I fear with each breath

It's life that scares me to death

This love, this hate, is burning me away

With this knife I'll cut out the part of me,

The part that cares for you

With this knife I'll cut out the heart of me,

The heart that cares for you

Life's too important to take seriously

I'm A Man of Many Words,

But a Man of Few Deeds

As I walk through the valley

Of the shadow of death

I wear my crown of thorns

and pull the knife out my chest

I keep searching for something that I never seem to find

and maybe I won't because I left it all behind
 

We've all been sorry,

We've all been hurt,

But how we survive

Is what makes us who we are