GlowingScars

Status: Even hell gets comfy once you settle in.
Joined: May 14, 2014
Last Seen: 9 years
user id: 382094
Location: Australia
Gender: F
Hello

If you really want to know about me:

My name is Ally
I am in grade 10 and I live in Australia

I have brown hair and abnormally oversized brown eyes.

I love sushi

I like dark chocolate, but i'm not a fan of milk chocolate.

I like milk.

I am very sarcastic.

I get annoyed  easily.

I hate studying.

I am good at science at school.

I am a national iceskater :)

I am 170 cm tall.
which is pretty tall for my age

I like makeup and skirts and dresses and high heeels but I wouldn't exactly consider myself girly.

My favourite colours are black, white and silver.
My mum hates that im so monochrome.


I joined witty, on a different account on July 10, 2011. I remember when the streets were flowing with people and we argues over pointless things like Nutella, One Direction and Gay Marriage. Unfortunately most people from back then have left witty, however I just want to thank Steve and all the Wittians because Wiity has changed my life, in fact Witty has saved me.

Quotes by GlowingScars

i relapsed on christmas night
how pathetic can i get
Yesterday, I spent 60 dollars on groceries,
took the bus home,
carried both bags with two good arms back to my studio apartment
and cooked myself dinner.
You and I may have different definitions of a good day.
This week, I paid my rent and my credit card bill,
worked 60 hours between my two jobs,
only saw the sun on my cigarette breaks
and slept like a rock.
Flossed in the morning,
locked my door,
and remembered to buy eggs.
My mother is proud of me.
It is not the kind of pride she brags about at the golf course.
She doesn’t combat topics like, ”My daughter got into Yale” 
with, ”Oh yeah, my daughter remembered to buy eggs”
But she is proud.
See, she remembers what came before this.
The weeks where I forgot how to use my muscles,
how I would stay as silent as a thick fog for weeks.
She thought each phone call from an unknown number was the notice of my suicide.
These were the bad days.
My life was a gift that I wanted to return.
My head was a house of leaking faucets and burnt-out lightbulbs.
Depression, is a good lover.
So attentive; has this innate way of making everything about you.
And it is easy to forget that your bedroom is not the world,
That the dark shadows your pain casts is not mood-lighting.
It is easier to stay in this abusive relationship than fix the problems it has created.
Today, I slept in until 10,
cleaned every dish I own,
fought with the bank,
took care of paperwork.
You and I might have different definitions of adulthood.
I don’t work for salary, I didn’t graduate from college,
but I don’t speak for others anymore,
and I don’t regret anything I can’t genuinely apologize for.
And my mother is proud of me.
I burned down a house of depression,
I painted over murals of greyscale,
and it was hard to rewrite my life into one I wanted to live
But today, I want to live.
I didn’t salivate over sharp knives,
or envy the boy who tossed himself off the Brooklyn bridge.
I just cleaned my bathroom,
did the laundry,
called my brother.
Told him, “it was a good day.”

You can never stop the waves, but you can learn to surf.
Its a metaphor
Gif taken from XxXHotGirlxXx


I am always tired yet can never fall asleep. 
Fu%k you insomnia.
Once I do fall asleep,
I can sleep for two hours, 
six hours, 
ten hours, 
all day,
 and when I get up, 
I will still feel exhausted.


Any suggestions?
I am a living contradiction
I either stay up all night or sleep for 16 hours
I either starve myself or eat too much
I fall in love too hard, or not at all
I dont know what grey is, never did.



To me it's so wierd to think
that some people will never experience the urge
to rip out their hair, tear off their nails or slice their skin.
It's become only natural.



 



I love black, white and grey. 
My friends ask

"What's wrong with having some colour?"

I reply,
"Life is so hectic, sometimes my brain prefers the simplictiy of shades."

-a.m.


 
"Insomnia is different" I told them.
 "You know the light in the fridge that
goes out when you shut it?
Imagine that it didn't go out.
That's what insomnia is like.
The light is in my head."
~
We become what we think about
~
About a month ago, on a long weekend, my family went away
and my house was robbed.

Everything was taken
television
jewelery
gaming consoles
money
laptops
desktops
phones
wifi modem


I have not had wifi or a phone, laptop, tv etc. for a month.
It made me realise how much i take everything for granted.

I want to apoligise because I now understand that compared to half the world population, I was an ungrateful, spoilt brat.
People are starving, dying, fighting in wars, and im taking everything i own for granted.

SORRY



Now that our new wifi has been installed, Hopefully you will see me around more often  :)