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Dude, did you read what i commented on your quote?

Your needed too, and you should know that. It wouldn't be the same without you. If it makes you feel any better, I need you. We may have many different interests, but you have plenty of friends unlike me. Im lucky to have you as a friend because I really dont have many. But knowing that I have you, Joann, Lakayla, Julia, and a couple other people reminds me that theres still something to live for. Don't give up c: You should always feel needed, because you are. Think about it, what if you suddenly disappeared? That would be awful. Our table and school wouldn't EVER be the same without you :) <3

Haha, the thing about the book made me smile:) Well, i guess people don't realize what i really go through, you know? I also don't want people to end up feeling the way I do everyday. As worthless as I usually feel, sometimes helping people makes me feel like I'm needed by someone. I'm glad I could help, and I forgive you. Theres a back story to everyone, that of which we usually dont know, and I guess mine is more personal and for that reason nobody knows or cares. I'm glad you'll stay healthy and be yourself. Your beautiful in so many ways. You have great enthusiasm and an awesome personality, and your body is perfect just the way it is. Its okay if you dont think the same way, because society just wants us to think that. I love you (not that way too XD) and I want you to know we all love you for who you are c: <3

** To add onto that, I dont want your life to be affected FOREVER because of a guy you have feelings for but doesn't exactly feel the same way. We all go through life, and learn different lessons, and your lesson was just a bit earlier than other peoples. Watch, one day he'll notice that being a douche wont get him a girl. Believe me.

Thats the spirit darling!~ I want you to tell me how that felt now. I feel like a therapist~lol. Anywho, did you feel better when you got that off your chest. I could tell you were overwhelmed with what is going on. And darling, i read your comment on "ZanIsMyName"'s profile (not to be stalkerish or anything, i was just interested in your conversation) and hun, it takes time for an eating disorder to develop. There was a time when I was in Poland, at a sleep away camp in a different country than my parents, and you know what I did? I didn't eat a single bite in 3 weeks. A whole 3 weeks. I was paper thin. It was scary, bones sticking out, no stomach (literally, like it was at the point where my ribs popped out more than the rest of my body, and still does), and thin wrists with no space left to cut. I looked like a skeleton. I dont even want to think of you being like that too. Your beautiful the way you are and some cant take that away from you. And you don't have to look like society wants you to look. And giving yourself an eating disorder like me isn't a way out of it. If you still want to lost weight, I want you to know theres so many better ways to do it than starving yourself. Eat a balanced diet (thats NOT starving yourself). And by that I mean eat what you normally eat, but take a LITTLE away from it, and replace sweets and candy with some fruits. And exercise. You dont need to be an exercise freak like me, and do nothing but that and play video games. Just give yourself about 30 minutes a day and do some SIMPLE exercises. I dont mean go full out with them or anything. Pace yourself, and it'll happen naturally. I lost more than half of my weight. I still BARELY weigh 80 pounds. Thas terrifying. Do you know how awful it is to go on a scale and see that you weight the amount a 2nd grader does? I really dont want you to even think about that. Push yourself to eat. I want you to. Please. Im begging. Dont do this to yourself over a guy.

Darling, I know we all dislike things about our selves, but what can we do? Sure, we might starve ourselves, hurt ourselves, thinking its the best way out. There are TONS of things you can do to take pain out of your life. For example I play video games and paint. Sure, not everyone is a huge gamer girl like i am, but everyone can paint. You dont need to good at it, just use some imagination. Please, just dont harm yourself, you'll truly regret it. And we all think we "love" someone. I "love" someone too, but I'm not willing to make a move for myself because I think it could be a mistake and I want it to happen on its own. Any who, we all support you for your decisions, but think them through thoroughly before taking action, promise me that, okay? You deserve better than Evan, sure he may have the looks and everything, but his personality is just f*cked up. Evan is just a first-class jerk and wants to mess with you while he knows you have feelings for him. Just try to stop thinking about him. And you know what, he just thinks its funny to do that kind of thing to you, when he really doesnt know what hes doing to you. I don't want this to ruin your life and your future, so I want you to know even if you like him, and he doesn't like you back, doesn't mean that you have to hurt yourself. Give yourself reasons to HATE him. Yes, I know you think hes perfect in every way possible, but if you think about the negative things about him, you'll come to think hes not really all that great. I dont like to see you like this, considering how me and Joann already cut, I think its already hard enough to deal with that personally and mentally. I dont want you to end up like us. We can't help it, but we want to stop you before its too late.

I'm glad to hear that you'll try and stop. I started in what, fourth grade? Then last year i finally stopped, but it was already an addiction and I felt like I was missing something, so I just couldn't stop myself from starting again. And, its okay, we all fall for different people. Wrong or right, we'll go through many relationships in our life, and they wont always be the greatest one in our lives, but thats okay. Life is about making mistakes. Eventually we'll know what to avoid and what to follow, and you accidentally took the wrong path. And Sophia, darling, your beautiful just the way you are. Weight doesn't matter. We all have different body types, and yours is beautiful. I wish I had a body like yours. Its fabulous. Its not creepily bony and non-muscular. And you know what, the so called "fat" on your body is perfect where it is, and it doesn't have to go anywhere. Just leave it there, because you should know your beautiful how you are and you don't need to change for anyone. And if you do have to change for someone, i recommend leaving the relationship immediately no matter how you feel about the person. Your not yourself. And i like the old you. Nobody's perfect, and all those tumblr girls aren't either. Pick up your head and straighten your back and have confidence in yourself. Your important to so many people, and one person shouldn't have to make you change your opinion about yourself. Don't give in. I love you, and stay strong

But considering how we have no lunch until like in 2 weeks (all half days, then no school on thursday and friday) Ill show him whos boss then c:

Thanks c: i already feel a bit better, i've been having problems again recently, very upsetting ones in fact.... i havent cut in a couple months... lets say about 4? I felt great, but now something doesnt feel right again... i listen to sad music, and by the end my eyes are watering, i dont know why.... well, i probably do...

Heyy c:

Don't forget the skittles! I don't have anymore Iced Tea... :'c

Yeah, a reeeallly bad upset stomach :c i hate them...

Yeah, im fine. I just have this liek awful stomach ache. Like just a really bad upset stomach.. :c

Heyy :c my stomach hurts so bad..

well then... LOL. XD so yeah.. whats up? (OTHER THAN THE SKY c: )

well, im sorry that i love my format c:

You said something about not wanting Xavier to know, and i said "WAIIITT. ARE YOU CHEATING ON XAVIER (jk)" and your like noooooo

WHY YOU NO WANNA TELL MEH :c pwease?

mmkayyy c: OH RIGHT. GUESS WHAT? im gonna tell yu anyway so DONT GUESS! LMFAO. oh righttt, so tomorrow, if it rains (sunday), which its supposed to, them meh and meh mommeh, are going to get meh hair extensions c:

I was kidding, but you wanna tell me? like maybe at school?