C h a p t
e r 4
I woke up
in the nurses office. Nurse Robose was on the phone with my mom
I think, and JD was at the side of my bed, holding my hand. It
looked like he had cried. Hard. I had only opened my eyes
lightly, and didn't want to wake up and face reality yet. I
twitched my fingers ever so slightly, and JD's head flew
up. His crystal clear blue eyes locked on mine, and he began to
tear up and sob. I had never seen a boy like him sob like that.
I opened my eyes fully, and realized I had a searing pain in my
ankle. I looked down to see it was all swollen and blotchly, 3
times the size of a normal ankle. I gasped, but it was too
quiet for anyone to hear. I guess I lost my voice, or I'm
losing it at the moment. There was a slight silence, but Nurse
R. spoke soon, ending it's soothing yet frightening weight,
lightening the room, but adding a new tension. "JD, honey,
if you keep crying, I'm going to have to kick you out.
You're getting a little over emotional, don't you
think?" Nurse Robose said. "Over..over emotional?!
OVER EMOTIONAL?!" JD began yelling at her. "IT'S
MY FAULT! IT'S MY FAULT SHE'S IN HERE!! I'll be
lucky if she ever talks to me again! I love her!" he began
crying again. "Emi..Emi I love you...that part was true.
Since I met you...in 7th grade...I knew I loved you.
We're..we're in 10th grade now, and Emi..Emi, I still
love you," he said almost inaudibly. I barely heard it.
"JD," Nurse Robose started. "I think it's
time you leave. Emi's mother will be here soon. She needs
x-rays of her ankle," she finished softly.
"No.." I tried to say, but it came out as nothing
more than a raspy whisper. "NO!" I tried again, this
time more forcefully. It was at least loud enough to hear this
time. "Honey, he needs to leave," Nurse R. said
sweetly. "I want him here with me..I'm not going
anywhere without him," I said at finally a normal voice.
Nurse R. puckered her lips, and opened her mouth to protest,
but decided not to. "If he cries anymore he's
leaving," she said, then turned around and stalked out
into the hall. To wait for my mom I supppose.
"Emi..I'm sorry. I-" JD began. "Save it, I
don't care. I just need my best friend with me, and
she's not here. You're the only one I can talk to now.
That's the only reason you're here because you're
right, after today, I probably won't ever talk to you
again. I just don't want to be alone," I said coldly.
With that, I turned to my side with my back facing him so he
wouldn't see me cry. He came back to the bedside and sat on
the edge, rubbing my back. I was too hurt and confused to fight
back, so I let him comfort me until I fell asleep again.
After Emi's speech, which hurt enough, I rubbed her back,
thinking about how much I had hurt her. I knew how insecure she
was, how fragile, and she trusted me. I will never forgive
myself. Soon, she fell asleep, and pushed the hair from her
face and tucked it behind her ear. Her hair was so soft, and
her skin too. I stroked her cheek, wondering what was taking
her mom so long. Slowly, gently, I bent down and kissed her
cheek. The same fireworks from our kiss earlier began in my
stomach, and I held her small, fragile hand in both of mine. I
would make this up to her. I know that I would never make it
even, but I'll do my best to make it up to her. I sat in
silence, her breathing the only sound in the office, for God
know's how long, just thinking on how much I hated myself
for this. After what felt like an eternity, I kissed her
forehead, then walked out to see if her mom was
song: Breathe Me-Sia*
^ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SFGvmrJ5rjM ^
It's getting a little difficult to
find a song I like for the chapter song so that may stop..but
anyway, thanks for the faves and comments guys<3 I
appreciate it! any suggestions or ideas for what happens next?
By the way, this is a really good song, so I would listen to
the whole thing if I were you! At least, I like this song so