HidingInMySmile

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Joined: May 25, 2012
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Howdy,
so this is my other account... A lot of you guys know me but when I need to vent about cutting I can't do it on my other account cuz one of my BEST friends knows it... but I just don't want to tell her abt the cuts... I started cutting in March... during spring break... I don't do it hard... and there is hardly any blood yet it does sting which helps me think abt the stinging instead of some other things that haunt me... I cut with a paper cutter that you find on one of those sliding kind... I never said that I wanted too... Just one day I took off the sliding thing and I was looking at it and then the idea just popped into my head... I was REALLY mad at my family that day... I feel like a failure to my family... and I believe that I am an asham to the world... My mom once said to me "How am I suppose to trust you now... I use to boast abt you... I use to say how I can trust you and you won't lie to me... You were my best friend!"... She told me that in 2nd grade... And it still fukin haunts me!!! I cry every night thinking that I ashamed my family... She said that after I lied to them about just one simple lie abt if I used the phone to call someone... I can't stand to be yelled at... If I am I BURST into tears like a waterfall!... And I can't stand to use the phone anymore... If Im on it I try to get off ... But it REALLY STUPID anyways... Don't get me wrong I got the kind of parents that are WAY too protective... But still they are parents that are a pain in the you know where... I use to be bullied by a friend for abt 6 months but that stopped... Now she is nice to me and we get along kinda weird IKR!... People make me feel different and EVERYONE points out my flaws which I already know!... Even some of my closer friends... Im just getting mad just say that.... I AM ALWAYS TENSE/ MAD AT THE WORLD!!!... I GAVE UP a long time ago!!!... I like to wear black shirts just to make a point to the world that Im not who you think I am... but no one picks up... I do a good job hiding it if I say so myself... I use to be REALLY strong in my faith but lately I been losing my faith in everything! I have thought of suicide and I know how I would do it too... I have two friends who I told that I am cutting but they don't seem to care and don't bother asking if I'm done or not... You see, since July I been done but I have slipped up in purpose.... Idon't want to stop... I'm just stopping for my friends and sister... I don't do it hard at all... I don't see why it isn't good besides the fact that one day all I wanted was MORE!!!... I think I might be bipolar which means that I am happy one sec but crying and cutting the next...

I am really nice and friendly and like to help people - just ask anyone... so if you need
to Vent TALK TO ME!!! Yes, I got probs too but that might just help me understand you better!!! Just fyi - I am VERY random and I talk fast... ummm got questions just ask and I can't spell great so sorry if any of the words are spelled wrong... Thanks

This is a drawing that I did... Every word/ pic means something... the words are the words that go thru my head every fukin' day!... This "drawing" is my thoughts, my soul, my life... Everything on there has a story... Everything on there connects to another picture... It is EVERYTHING to me!

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funkyoctopus121 9 years ago
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toasted bread
what do you mean you cant smell ??? O_O
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WhatIsLoveTheseDays 9 years ago
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Prologue and chapter 1 is up:)
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nevercutyourbeautiful 9 years ago
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MusicFreak24 9 years ago
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Thx but they are really short I didn't finish them yet so yea and thx again
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aguilar103 9 years ago
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Alright sounds good! & thanks for keeping me updated! Love ya too ! ^.^
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CCKITTY_0714 9 years ago
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Ok well cool, you got it and now go visit Teen_Advice and I will talk to you through her ok? see ya! :)
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CCKITTY_0714 9 years ago
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Ok so can you fill out this interview then I will give you like the username for the community:
1. How do you help people when they ask for your advice?
2. How often do you go on?
3. How often you help people?
4. Why would you like to work with me and the others (My name is Cindy BTW...
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CCKITTY_0714 9 years ago
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hey claire! So no we're not going to use your quotes we're going to use this other account or the account that I'm on right now...So I need to kinda interview you a little, but right now I need to talk to the other person but I'll talk to you next :)
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funkyoctopus121 9 years ago
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thanks ill read now :P
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aguilar103 9 years ago
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Keep it up , im like in love with the story so far >.♥
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zurcetak 9 years ago
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What's your other account so i can follow you there aswell:)
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zurcetak 9 years ago
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lol. Thanks for the faves appreciate it:)
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zurcetak 9 years ago
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Yeah. Thanks! but it's alright now.
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maxiemax456 9 years ago
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please go read chapter 1 of my story "dear diary" and comment what you think so far
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OperationBeautiful 9 years ago
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It's not a matter of believing, its a matter of realizing. You are beautiful!
OperationBeautiful.com
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babydolphin09 9 years ago
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what's your other account name?
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Julidanika 9 years ago
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The Gay Marriage Fights And Nutella Fights Are Everywhere!
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alittlemoreus 9 years ago
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p-iadwgwkkI&feature=channel&list=UL please do me a favour and watch my cover :)! it would mean so much
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UnknownButNotInvisibleDanny 9 years ago
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aguilar103 9 years ago
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Just a bit , but so far , it's really good & i'm enjoying them , keep them going (:
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