9 Years
Old
By the time I was nine,
my mom bought a house with this guy Charles. I was scared of him.
He looked at me creepy. He wanted to be apart of this famliy
because of me. He was going to marry my mom, so he could see me
everyday. He could be home alone, with me. I did not want my mom
to marry him, but I kept it all to myself and dealt with
it.
At their wedding, I was
the flower girl, and had to be with him. I was going to be stuck
with him until I was 18. I didn't know if he would ever make
a move on me or just creep me out forever. The wedding was
alright, and the reception was worse. I saw him the whole time,
and he kept looking at me.
They decided to get a
house without telling us kids. He was gonna go camped out on our
land and he told me I had to go. I was scared. But my mom told me
I had to go. So I packed some clothes, even though those would be
gone.
When we got there, it was
already getting dark and he had a little camper and said that me
and him would have to sleep in the same bed since it was messy
and small. He brought a laptop so we could watch one movie, and I
chose Mad Money. Halfway through the movie he gave me beer, and I
didn't really like it so I kept secretly pouring it out. But
if I was really drinking them, I would have drank eight. I guess
he thought I was drunk, so he started to take off my clothes, and
slowly touch my breast and rub them, and lick them. He kept going
futher down, and down until he stuck his fingers inside me, and
it hurt, I was crying and screaming out. He got on top of me to
cover my mouth and kept going until he stopped and cumed
everwhere and made me curl up to him, and he went to sleep
but I did not. I just cried. The next morning I got ready to
leave, and got in the truck and went home, took a shower and felt
grossed with myself.
I FELT ALONE!
8
Yearrs Old
Jessi and I spent
some time together but we shared a room and we alreayd had enough
of each other. We were both a little nervous about starting
school in Graham and we vowed to sit on the bus together. When
the bus came, she ran off to some seat in the back and some guy
sat next to her, and she left me all alone again. I sat in
the middle by myself and tried to prepare myself for school. I
was so scared. When I got there, and the school was way bigger
than it was in Gruver. I didn't know how I was gonna find
anything. The first part of school went by okay. We did math and
english and I was pretty good at both of those, but then we went
to lunch and I had to sit by myself and when I was done the
lunchroom was empty and I didn't know where to go. So I
walked around the school and finally found our homeroom and sat
there by the door and cried and cried because I didn't know
where to go and where anyone was at. Finally, my teacher showed
up, and asked me what happened and I told her how I got lost and
she assigned me a buddy and they were suppose to show me around
but they weren't very nice about it so when I got home, I
just cried and cried. My mom worked nights at Wal-mart so by the
time I got home she was already gone so I couldn't tell her
about it. And Jessi was busy on the phone. She said she had a
good day and she made a lot of friends. And I had none. Nothing
was working out already. I cried myself to sleep that night. And
when I woke up, there was a guy in my mom's bed. And he was
awake, and staring at me with hungry
eyes..............