Hopelessinluv

Meeting someone onlince can be pretty great! You talk to them all the time. They mean so much to you. You can trust them 100% and tell them things you couldn't tell anyone else. But there is a problem with only knowing someone online. Eventually they leave. They say they won't: you'll be friends forever, they care too much to let you go BUT they do leave. Even worse, they often leave in a way that hurts so badly. They leave without a word of warning.- gone just like that, leaving you mad and upset. why mad AND upset? They left without saying (I'm not saying it always happens like this; in fact it probably only happens to me, which it has, three times). I feel like this is the worst way to leave someone though because they won't know if you are alright or not. At least if you say you are done talking it will hurt but there will be closure. When a friend leaves without warning  I spend so much time worrying and thinking about it, not that I wouldn't worry and think if they had said they were leaving, I would but it would be easier to eventually get over. With one just leaving you don't know if they are ok or not; they could be dead. I still worry about people I used to talk to and at times it hurts so bad. 
So now I am talking to this new guy and I am really starting to get attached because he is so nice and a great friend and I really love talking to him. But I can't help and wonder if it's actuallya good idea because something could happen and I would never know; one day there will just be no replies to my emails and that thought scares me so badly. But yet another chance I take...