Sequel to Want Me
Chapter 19
Afterward
*Blane's Point Of View*
After
Heidi's death I broke the news to her family. It was hard
to tell grandma and Zack. Carter and I went home when he was
three weeks old. We stayed with Alex until then.
Hayden was happy when she saw Carter. Granted, she was
only almost 2. But I was happy about her response to her
brother.
Heidi's funeral was held at a nearby cemetery in
Texas. Everyone attended, including her mother. She shed some
tears, but then left immediately following the burial.
Two weeks after Heidi's death, Zack lost his battle
with liver cancer. He was buried next to her.
Today, 3 years later, Hayden, Carter and I live in a
small, two bedroom apartment.
With Hayden being 5 and Carter only 3, life is hectic.
I'm now 22, and going to college. Grandma watches them when
I'm in class, and when I work at the music store on Main
St.
I still keep in touch with Alex. He has a fancy new job
and a fiance'. They are due to get married in
November, and I have been invited to the wedding. Alex sends
money every two months. I told him not to, but he still does.
It helps out with the bills and stuff for Hayden and
Carter.
Heidi's dad comes and visit every two or three
months. He spends three or four days up here. He usually takes
the kids to the park, or zoo when I have to work or I'm at
school. It gives Grandma a break.
I haven't seen anyone since Heidi's death 3
years ago. I've been trying to go to college and get a
degree so I can have a good job. I've been fully committed
to my kids lives.
I keep a picture of Heidi next to my bed, and one of us
at our wedding next to the couch. Hayden says goodnight to the
picture before bed every night. Carter doesn't know much
about his mom, but I talk about her every night. I'm hoping
he will grow to know and love her like I do.
~THE END~
Sequel to Want Me
Chapter 18
*Blane's Point Of View*
"Blane Sanders." A tall man in in a white coat
called. Heidi's doctor. I jumped to my feet.
"That's me." I said as he
walked down the empty hall to where Alex and I now stood. Hope
filled my heart. She was alive.
"You're Heid's husband?" He
asked, looking down at his chart, then back at me.
"Yes, yes I am. Is she alive?" The
expression on his face almost knocked me down. I knew what he
was going to say next, and I didn't want to hear it.
"No." I began to shout. "No!
You didn't try hard enough! She has to be alive!"
Tears streamed down my face in agony. How could this be? How
could Heidi be dead?
"I'm sorry. She went into shock
after the baby was being choked by its umbilical cord.
That's what caused the pain. That also caused her to go
into shock, which lead to her death. I'm sorry."
I shook my head. "No! No, you're
lying! Please tell me you're lying!"
"Mr. Sanders, Heidi is dead." I dropped
to my knees. Pain trailed throughout my body like lightning.
Heidi was dead. My wife, my lover, my best friend was gone.
"But your son did live. Would you like to see
him?" Those words brought me back to reality. My son?
I looked up at the doctor. "It's-it's a
boy?" I stumbled over my words.
"Yes. Follow me." I stood up and followed
the doctor down the hall to an empty room. There, in a small
see-through box like thing, laid my son.
I began to cry even more. I didn't know if it
was because I was happy the baby survived, or if I was angry
that he killed my wife.
I walked over to my son and looked down at him. He had
his eyes closed, and was sound asleep. I gently stroked his
hand.
"Hey little guy. I'm your daddy." Saying
those words filled me with joy. I had a son. But I immediately
felt pain. This was one moment I would never be able to share
with Heidi. She never got to see how wonderful he
was.
"It's okay." Alex said, patting my back.
"Everything is going to be okay."
"How can you say that? She's dead! Heidi is
dead! Carter is never going to see his mom, and Hayden will
only have memories." I replied.
"What did you call him?" Alex looked at me,
puzzled.
"I-I guess I called him Carter." I looked down
at my son. "Carter Alex Sanders."
"Carter Alex Sanders?"
"Yeah. Carter because Heidi was going to name our
first son that, but settled for Blane Jr. instead. And Alex because I will
always remember the guy who helped me through it all."
Alex smiled and looked down at Carter.
"Blane." I heard a faint whisper call my name.
I looked up.
"Hey, I'll give you a minute alone." Trey
said, stepping out of the room.
"Blane." The voice said again, this time a
little louder.
I looked around, and there, standing by the
window was Heidi. The problem was, it wasn't her. It was
just her ghost or something. I read about this thing happening
in books, and in movies. But I didn't imagine it could
happen to me.
"Heidi!" I said. Tears of joy and sadness
falling from my eyes.
"Take good care of Carter and Hayden. Tell them how
much I love them. And I want you to remember something, I love
you. I will always love you. I will be here, in your
heart. I have to go now. I'll be seeing you again. Just not
soon." She smiled and then vanished.
I broke down once more and cried and cried. She was
gone. Gone forever. The last words I had said to here were I
love you. And I meant them with all my heart.
Sequel to Want Me
Chapter 17
*Blane's Point Of View*
"Is she going to be okay? What's happening to
her?!" I shouted as the EMT began to drive faster.
"Sir, calm down. You have to remain calm so I
can help her." The man replied. But I couldn't stay
calm. I couldn't relax and let him help her; save her.
Heidi was dying, right in front of my eyes. And so was our
baby. I needed to scream, I needed to cry. I needed Heidi.
"Please... please. You have to save her." I
said, breaking down and crying. The only other time Heidi had
been in danger was almost two years ago. That's when Trevor
had injured her and me. That's when he killed
Blane
Jr.
But when Heidi was hurt, I wasn't there. I was in
another state of mind. Unable to hear or to think. Unable to
see or to speak.
But this time I could see, speak, hear and think. And
right in front of my eyes, my beautiful wife, my best friend,
my only love, was dying.
"Drive faster!" I shouted. "We have to
make it there. She has to live."
"Sir, we are almost there. The hospital is right up
the road." The woman replied. I leaned my head against the
metal siding and closed my eyes. I silently sobbed.
The ambulance came to a stop and the woman jumped
out of the car. She quickly opened up the back of the
ambulance, and they rushed Heidi into the emergency room.
"Come on." Alex said, appearing at the back of
the ambulance. I jumped out of the back and we ran into the
hospital.
"Where did they take her?" I asked him,
knowing he wouldn't have an answer.
"I don't know. Probably to an operating
room. Come on, there are some chairs. Lets sit down and
wait." He replied, walking over to a row of chairs that
lined the hallway.
"I can't wait! My wife, she's...
she's ...dying!" I shouted the last words in agonizing
pain. Sure, it was easy to say them in my head, because they
could be wrong. But saying them out loud made them all too
real.
I fell to the ground and buried my face in my
hands. She can't. She can't ever, ever die on
me.
Alex slowly walked over to me and placed on hand
on my shoulder.
"I know what you're going through."
He whispered, kneeling down beside me.
"Know you don't! You can not possibly
know how it feels to have your wife and child dying right in
front of your eyes!" I spit back at him.
"No, I don't. But I do know what its like to
lose the love of your life." His voice was calm, but I
could hear the pain behind it. I looked up at him, immediately
sorry for my harsh words.
"Kristi and I were so in love. We were even
engaged. We had been inseparable for two years before I
proposed. We were on our way to her parents house to tell them
about my proposal. A drunk driver ran the red light." He
stopped, tears forming in his eyes. "I remember waking up
in the hospital, asking for her. The nurse said that she was
killed immediately by the impact. She hit her head pretty hard
on the windshield. I cried myself to sleep every night. I still
do, and that was a year ago."
I felt remorse for him. I couldn't imagine
what it would be like if I lost Heidi. I didn't want
to.
"I'm so sorry." I mumbled.
He shook his head and stood up. He helped me up and
we walked over and sat down in the chairs that lined the empty
hall.
Heidi was perfect. The love of my life and the
only person in the world that could ever make me smile. I loved
her more than anything in this cold, shallow world. But it was
neither cold nor shallow when I was with her.
That's why when the doctor walked out of the
room and called my name, i cried. How could I possibly be
happy, when I felt so horrible and broken inside?
Sequel to Want Me
Chapter 16
"The ambulance is on its way."
Alex said, running over to us. I was still in a lot of pain.
Blane
was knelt down beside me, his arm around me.
"It's going to be okay." He reassured
me. "Everything is going to be fine."
I looked up at him. How could he be sure? How could he
know that the baby was going to be fine, that I was going to be
fine?
"How do you know?" I mumbled. He looked down,
then back at me.
"Because it has to be. Because it will be."
Before he looked away, I saw a single tear fall from his
eyes.
Alex knelt down on the other side of me. He looked into
my eyes.
"Hey, you're going to be fine." He said,
then looked at Blane. "She's going to be fine." The
way he looked at Blane what comforting. He was trying to assure
him that I would be here tomorrow. That our baby would be
fine, inside me. But for some reason, I couldn't believe
him.
I heard the sirens of the ambulance as they approached
the beach.
"OW. AHH!" I screamed as pain shot throughout
me.
"Heidi." Blane said, throwing his arms around
me. I could hear his sobs as he laid his head against my
shoulder.
"Here's the ambulance." Alex said, helping
Blane
up. A paramedic rushed over to me. They took my blood pressure
and checked my heart rate. Another man rushed over with a
stretcher. They gently picked me up and placed me on it.
"You ride with her. I'll get my car and meet
you there." I heard Alex say.
"Hey man, thanks." Blane said.
"No problem. You need someone."
Blane
ran over to the ambulance and climbed in the back. He sat on a
small metal bench next to me and grabbed my hand.
"I'm sorry." He mumbled through his
tears.
"I am too." I replied.
"I was never going to go out with Katie and
Amber. I just said that to make you mad. I was mad, and
wanted you to be too."
"Blane, I already was."
"I love you." He said, kissing my hand.
"I love you too." I replied before a wave of
pain sucked me under. I couldn't see anything. Everything
went black, and dark. My body was shaking. All I could hear was
the panic cry of Blane calling for the paramedic.
"What's happening?" He shouted.
"She's going into shock." The male
paramedic replied.
"Heidi. Heidi, can you hear me?" The man
asked. Yes, I wanted to scream, I can hear
you! But I couldn't make my mouth move, couldn't
force the words out.
"Oh god." Blane cried. "Save her!" He
screamed.
"Sir, we are trying."
"Try harder! She's... she's all I
have."
"We are sir. We will do our best to save her and
the baby."
"No. Save her before the baby. We already have a
daughter. We can have more kids. But I need her." He was
crying heavy now.
I wanted so bad to wake up from this dark place. To
comfort Blane and tell him I was okay. But I couldn't.
No matter how hard I tried, the darkness and pain kept me
under, drowning me.
Would I ever see Blane's face again?