Hi there, I'm Taylor
chesterbenningtonx3.tumblr.com
^ Obviously my Tumblr XD
I'm not the most expressive person sometimes.
This layout kind of reminds me of myself.
Happy and colorful on the outside.
Dark and kind of sad on the inside.
(Man, that was deep.)
I'm obsessed with Homestuck.
If you don't know what that is, check it out.
It's mspaintadventures.com
My Tumblr About Me page has literally everything you could possibly know about me on it.
So check that out if you wanna know more.
Yeah, my best friend
is really pretty and really funny. Yeah,
her clothes are really cute. Yeah, it
is awesome being her best friend. You
know what'd be really cool, though? If you'd stop
reminding me about how amazing she is. It's hard
enough living in her shadow. It's hard enough trying
so hard to be like her so people will like me. It's
hard enough that it doesn't even work. I hate it when
you remind me how much better she is than me.
Everyone likes her more. Guys and girls. She
doesn't really acknowledge me anymore. I think she just
keeps me around because It's nice to have a little puppy
that follows you around all the time that does whatever you
want it to. I can't stand the fact that I'll never be
as good as her. She's so confident and doesn't care
what anyone thinks. She's strong and bosses people
around (like me) and they let her. The worst
part is that she knows that me makes me feel like worthless,
useless sh*t yet nothing's changed. She
only talks to me when she has to. She abandons me for my other
friend. She acts like nothing is wrong. She acts like I
don't cry about it sometimes. I think she knows that I feel
weak because of her. I don't know how intentional it all
is, but I do know that it hurts like hell.
I've been too strong for too long. I've kept
quiet for too long. Whenever I say I'm okay, I want someone,
ANYONE, to look me in the eyes and say "No you're
not."
Me:Ugh, could
this day get any worse? My Hair: Oh, sorry, I wasn't listening. I
was too busy getting tangled. My Teacher: More homework, you say? My Brother: As soon as I'm done stealing
your stuff. My Fridge: Are you up for meatloaf? The Internet: Will it help if I stop
working? The Universe:Challenge
accepted.
Really,
Mom? "It's just a phase"? So all teenage girls
are completely shut out by their own friends. So all
teenage girls would rather stay inside and play video games
than party. So all teenage girls pretend that they're
someone they're not in their head. So all teenage
girls think this deeply. So all teenage girls are
invisible to everyone.