Im never good
enough
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I wasnt good enough to make the
volleyball team,
I wasnt good enough to be in drama
club,
I wasnt good enough to be in the school
musical,
Im never good enough.
Today i found out i didnt make the musical,
and i was really sad about it. And not one
of my friends asked me what was
wrong. Or even noticed. I kinda just wanted
one of them to ask me whats wrong. Even
though i would have said nothing im fine.
Its just.. it would be nice to know that
they cared. But no one even cared enough to
notice. I wasnt try to be attention seeking
or fishing for compliements. I just wanted
to know that at least one of them cared. I
was just so heart broken. Not making the
musical tore me apart. It was the one thing
i was looking forward to in highschool. And
now i cant do it. It was the entire reason
i didnt go to technical hightschool in my
town. I wanted this more then anything. And
whats worse is (not to sound concieted) but
i know people who did worse then i did that
made it in. People who didnt try and didnt
care got in. Then there is me who tried my
very best and really cared. But i didn get
in. At first i was like its fine im only a
freshman, because my friend who also didnt
make it was cry and i had to comfort her.
Then i got to thinking... I want good
enough to make the volleyball team, or
drama club. And now im not golod enough to
make the musical. Plus my brother is super
smart so he always gets fantastic grades
and im like i get good grades too. But dose
anyone care? No because my brother will
always be smarter. IM not good at anything.
Im ok at soccer. IM okay at volleyball. Im
an okay singer. Im okay in school.IM not
good at ANYTHING. And that makes me
sad.
Sorry i needed
to get it out