Hey hun, I just saw your quote about self harm, and I just wanted to let you know that I'm here for you. I won't tell you to not do it, because I know that doesn't help. I won't tell you how beautiful you are, because I know you won't believe me. I've been where you are, and I know how everyday it can be a struggle to just get out of bed. All I'm going to say is that when you feel like nobody cares about you, know that I care. Yes, I'm some random chick from the internet, but I am someone and I care. If you ever need to talk, I'm here for you. Best of luck sweetie.
I love the polar express sooooo much omg! and yeah I guess it'll hit me eventually, when the time and my mindset and place and the people are right together. Another thing that doesn't help is I am a total woman of science! and science and the bible do not line up... I sort of let them coexist in my head and don't think about the major discrepancies too much.
There are some times when I'm like "God. Literally right here right now." But its only in certain situations and things... Like the Christian summer camp I went to, I found God there. But once I got back to school, I just... Idk forgot I guess. Because my life isn't really that tough, and I have good friends who are so loving and helpful. It's just that most of the time I really don't think about it. But even though I don't really know whether I believe, I love going to church and hearing the sermons by this one pastor... She had one about Where the Wild Things Are that was just so profound... And I feel that what she's saying is true, yet it doesn't come with an accompanying feeling of belief in God. Usually. It's so on and off with me. And you are totally right. It's much harder to believe without seeing. Like the movie Polar Express, you know? After insane it for the fiftygazzilionth time, I said to one of my friends, "not believing in Santa is sort of like not believing in God..." And she totally shot it down... But I mean, like there's the whole seeing is believing thing, and that Santa takes from himself to give to others and he uses his gifts for the good of others, and loves everyone, even that really obnoxious know it all kid... I don't know it just hit me in the moment and it seemed right (that movie is so beautiful, damnit!) until she shot it down... (I'm pretty sure she's an absolute skeptic and looks down on the idea of God even though she got confirmed...) but also the idea of something bigger is really really weird to me. Like do I want to think that nothing I do is my own? That its all the result of someone else's plans for me? I just don't know...
I take Spanish in school lol but I have a bunch of friends in French, and their teacher plays them French music all the time... After they showed me some I went off in a tangent lol try Elle Me Dit by MIKA and I also love Corbeau by Coeur de Pirate
I take Spanish in school lol but I have a bunch of friends in French, and their teacher plays them French music all the time... After they showed me some I went off in a tangent lol try Elle Me Dit by MIKA and I also love Corbeau by Coeur de Pirate
No problem! And just as I read the part on your profile about liking weird music, some really obnoxious French dance music started playing on my iPod lol and I was like yesss...
I take Spanish in school lol but I have a bunch of friends in French, and their teacher plays them French music all the time... After they showed me some I went off in a tangent lol try Elle Me Dit by MIKA and I also love Corbeau by Coeur de Pirate
well now she's my gf =) but it still doesn't feel like a romantic thing, it just feels like a natural extension of our friendship. like it's how it's supposed to be, sexual orientation ignored. I had a boyfriend, and this is so totally different. so totally beautiful.