Ineedmakyinme

Status: But, my dear, this is not Wonderland and you are not Alice.
Joined: December 22, 2011
Last Seen: 2 months
user id: 254279
Location: Six feet under
Gender: F
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Long story short..

If you're not on this list, I hate you.

Amber
Sophie
Bree



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Quotes by Ineedmakyinme


I would like to give a BIG thanks to my mother
who laughed when my doctor asked me if I was sexually active.
I wish I was able to video tape her reaction when I told him that I in fact was.

 


Why can't mental illness
be like any other kind of sickness
where you go to the hospital
and your loved ones come
and give you flowers
or balloons
and tell you that they love you
and hold your hand
and make sure you get better?

why doesn't that happen
instead of
awkward silences
and embarassing tears
and messy bedsheets
and a bunch of other stuff
no one actually talks about?








FLIGHT TO:              DESTINATION:                  INFORMATION:
HP529                       HAPPINESS                      DELAYED
FU662                       FULFILMENT                      DELAYED
EJ190                        ENJOYMENT                     DELAYED
BL770                        BLISS                               DELAYED
LV391                        LOVE                              CANCELLED
PL009                        PEACE                             DELAYED
IY69X                         INTIMACY                         DELAYED
DN955                       DEPRESSION                    ON TIME
Sometimes I get so sad

So saf that I 
completely shut down

I stare blankly at the wall
And it doesn't matter what
you say to me
Because in that moment
I don't exist
I Am Depression

I'm the emptiness
You feel at 2am.
The tears with no meaning.
The pain when you smile.
I don't come alone.
I bring my closest friends...
We are the scars that,
Cover your body.
The voice you despise,
But soon learn to trust...
I am the only thing
You will feel..

 
Sometimes I don't
want things to get
better.

Sometimes I want
things to get really
bad so I have a 
reason to kill
myself.

Sometimes  I wish
people didn't care,
so I could kill
myself without
feeling bad.

does that make me a cr@p person?
Rarely do you
see an adult walking
around with scars
littering their body;

now is it because
they were a happier
generation?

Or, maybe,
it's because
most of us
just don't
make it
that far.
Fake smile.
Dead eyes.
Scratch wrists.
Bruised thighs.

White pills.
Rope tied.
Gun loaded.

Suicide.
If I ever get hit by a car
Thank the man behind the whell
Because he took me away
From a place I didn't want to be
And if I ever get shot
Tell the man behind the trigger
That he just did
What i was always
Scare to do
That day
I died just a little
when you were
in the middle
of your sentence
and I knew
where it was going
I didn't want
to hear the rest
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