Irma_Jean

Status: ILOVEYOU
Joined: December 26, 2011
Last Seen: 9 years
user id: 255758
Location: Missouri
Gender: F
I wish for a day where the only thing people dislike about me is that I'm not with them brightening their day. 

I don't really talk about this much, and we are a witty 'Family' and we need to start acting like it. So here it goes. I will tell you about myself.

I am 15, my name is Emma, and I am battling with depression and anxiety. It is a serious issue. My parents hate me for it. I am on Zoloft for it, but its so hard to get out of bed in the morning. I have missed school before I just couldn't get out of bed. The scars on my wrists, stomach, ankles, bottoms of my feet, and my thighs, are just things about me. If they could talk they would be able to tell you my life story. It really bothers me when people fake depression forattention, or they are completely fine but just feel ignored. I try and cover my scars, I hide them, most people don't know about them because it really is my coping mechanism, nota cry for attention. My dad loves me, theres no doubt about it, but he gets so mad at me. He doesn't understand it. All he can think about is that I'm young, I'm a model, I play competetive tennis and basketball, and we aren't struggling for money. Honestly, I wonder if he forgets that when I was 11 my best friend, Mikey, died from Mitral Valve Prolapse, or that when I was 12, my best friend Alexis died from Osteosarcoma, or that sometimes I get thrown around, or that last year I was beaten up in my foods class by 3 people because of my religion (that wasn't the only time its happened), or that I am constantly bullied because I'm tall, or because I'm a Baha'i not a Christian, does he forget that I am only 15 and he throws so much at me that I can't handle? Does he know that in the course of summer 2012, I've lost 2 of my best friends which caused them to talk to others and get them against me, too? Does he know that moving, finally getting settled, and then switching schools is hard to handle. Does he know that his verbal abuse just adds to my struggles everyday. I love him, but I just wish he could understand. 

It may sound strange but I am that girl, I am that girl that no matter her struggles she wont let anyone see it, and if someone else is upset she will make them laugh and be happy, secretly wishing someone would do that for her.

I love you all. When I finally do end life so my dad can go on with life and not worry about his daughter, so that no one will be bothered by me not being a Christian, so that no one will have to deal with me or my baggage, remember that my heart will belong to God and that you are loved, even if I was not.

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Rajsonkar 1 decade ago
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hi emma .. :) you look very very very very very very pretty and cute
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beary0630 1 decade ago
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It looks like he's looking to buy a house in LA. He's not moving there, he will live in the UK still but he's looking for a house for when he visits.
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TheWeirdKid 1 decade ago
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chapter one of dont leave c:
http://www.wittyprofiles.com/q/6675269
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TheWeirdKid 1 decade ago
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heey! how're you guys? I've written the prologue to the sequal to broken. it's called Dont Leave! Check it out!
http://www.wittyprofiles.com/q/6671244
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TheWeirdKid 1 decade ago
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TheWeirdKid 1 decade ago
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chapter 14... last chapter ;_;
http://www.wittyprofiles.com/q/6640679
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TheWeirdKid 1 decade ago
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chapter 13 of broken!:)
http://www.wittyprofiles.com/q/6638954
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TheWeirdKid 1 decade ago
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chapter 12 of broken is up:0
http://www.wittyprofiles.com/q/6634900
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TheWeirdKid 1 decade ago
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chapter 11 is up! I'm back from my cottage!
http://www.wittyprofiles.com/q/6624638
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TheWeirdKid 1 decade ago
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chapter 10 is finally up!!
http://www.wittyprofiles.com/q/6617343
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TheWeirdKid 1 decade ago
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TheWeirdKid 1 decade ago
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chapter 8 is up, thanks for reading, two chapters up today.
http://www.wittyprofiles.com/q/6615182
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TheWeirdKid 1 decade ago
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TheWeirdKid 1 decade ago
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Chapter 6 is up:) thanks for staying, sorry I havent uploaded in a while:) http://www.wittyprofiles.com/q/6612153
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TheWeirdKid 1 decade ago
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CHapter 5 is upppp uppp uppp! I'm sorta depressed so sorry if this chapter comes out darkly:P
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TheWeirdKid 1 decade ago
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Chapter 4 of broken is up!thanks for readingx
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TheWeirdKid 1 decade ago
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Chapter 3's uppp c:
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TheWeirdKid 1 decade ago
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Chapter 2's up, haha, i said I would wait but I'm not going to because I don't know, sorry if i'm rushing o,o
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TheWeirdKid 1 decade ago
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Chapter 1 of Broken. is up!!c:
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britany* 1 decade ago
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What part of Missouri are you from? I used to live there!
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Irma_Jean 1 decade ago
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Boone County :)
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britany* 1 decade ago
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Oh ok, cool! I was from Kansas City.
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Irma_Jean 1 decade ago
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Oh my goodness! That's cool! I go there once a month!
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Irma_Jean 1 decade ago
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Oh my goodness! That's cool! I go there once a month!
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britany* 1 decade ago
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Oh how cool!
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