Irma_Jean

Status: ILOVEYOU
Joined: December 26, 2011
Last Seen: 7 years
user id: 255758
Location: Missouri
Gender: F
I wish for a day where the only thing people dislike about me is that I'm not with them brightening their day. 

I don't really talk about this much, and we are a witty 'Family' and we need to start acting like it. So here it goes. I will tell you about myself.

I am 15, my name is Emma, and I am battling with depression and anxiety. It is a serious issue. My parents hate me for it. I am on Zoloft for it, but its so hard to get out of bed in the morning. I have missed school before I just couldn't get out of bed. The scars on my wrists, stomach, ankles, bottoms of my feet, and my thighs, are just things about me. If they could talk they would be able to tell you my life story. It really bothers me when people fake depression forattention, or they are completely fine but just feel ignored. I try and cover my scars, I hide them, most people don't know about them because it really is my coping mechanism, nota cry for attention. My dad loves me, theres no doubt about it, but he gets so mad at me. He doesn't understand it. All he can think about is that I'm young, I'm a model, I play competetive tennis and basketball, and we aren't struggling for money. Honestly, I wonder if he forgets that when I was 11 my best friend, Mikey, died from Mitral Valve Prolapse, or that when I was 12, my best friend Alexis died from Osteosarcoma, or that sometimes I get thrown around, or that last year I was beaten up in my foods class by 3 people because of my religion (that wasn't the only time its happened), or that I am constantly bullied because I'm tall, or because I'm a Baha'i not a Christian, does he forget that I am only 15 and he throws so much at me that I can't handle? Does he know that in the course of summer 2012, I've lost 2 of my best friends which caused them to talk to others and get them against me, too? Does he know that moving, finally getting settled, and then switching schools is hard to handle. Does he know that his verbal abuse just adds to my struggles everyday. I love him, but I just wish he could understand. 

It may sound strange but I am that girl, I am that girl that no matter her struggles she wont let anyone see it, and if someone else is upset she will make them laugh and be happy, secretly wishing someone would do that for her.

I love you all. When I finally do end life so my dad can go on with life and not worry about his daughter, so that no one will be bothered by me not being a Christian, so that no one will have to deal with me or my baggage, remember that my heart will belong to God and that you are loved, even if I was not.

Comments by Irma_Jean

Irma_Jean 8 years ago to Steve
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A witty app? I think that should be a thing :)
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Steve 8 years ago to Steve
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ok, please write it.
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Pesadilla 8 years ago to Steve
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omg lol
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Irma_Jean 8 years ago to TheWeirdKid
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I can't see Chapter five :( I haven't been on in a while, but the story is amazing!
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TheWeirdKid 8 years ago to TheWeirdKid
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yeah i noticed you stopped liking the chapters haha:) but it's okayy and thanks so so much! i haven't uploaded in a while (busyyy) but here's the link to chapter 5 if you want:) http://www.wittyprofiles.com/q/6589412
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Irma_Jean 9 years ago to beary0630
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Hahaha! Thats kind of great! I have a chance with one of them! ...maybe... If i ever get to meet any of them... Awk...
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beary0630 9 years ago to beary0630
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Oh it's not awkward I feel the same as you. My one friend and I plan to meet them in July and are hoping to at least have a chat with them lol
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Irma_Jean 9 years ago to beary0630
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Then what about Niall and Amy? I'm so confused! :P
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beary0630 9 years ago to beary0630
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They were never going out! That was just a rumor going around awile ago. They are just really good friends. And it actualy looks like Amy is a lesbian now anyway so... haha
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Irma_Jean 9 years ago to beary0630
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In a recent update you said Harry and Taylor are most likely broken up, saying 2/5 free! Who else is single? I was grounded forever and I've missed so much!!!
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beary0630 9 years ago to beary0630
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Niall is single too! So Harry and Niall!
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Irma_Jean 9 years ago to Irma_Jean
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Oh my goodness! That's cool! I go there once a month!
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Irma_Jean 9 years ago to Irma_Jean
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Oh my goodness! That's cool! I go there once a month!
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britany* 9 years ago to Irma_Jean
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Oh how cool!
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Irma_Jean 9 years ago to Irma_Jean
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Boone County :)
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britany* 9 years ago to Irma_Jean
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Oh ok, cool! I was from Kansas City.
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Irma_Jean 9 years ago to Irma_Jean
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Oh my goodness! That's cool! I go there once a month!
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Irma_Jean 9 years ago to Irma_Jean
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Oh my goodness! That's cool! I go there once a month!
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britany* 9 years ago to Irma_Jean
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Oh how cool!
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Irma_Jean 9 years ago to Irma_Jean
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Thank you so much <3
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Irma_Jean 9 years ago to Irma_Jean
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Thank you, and I will always be here for you, as well
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Irma_Jean 9 years ago to Irma_Jean
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Aww, thanks! You're so sweet
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BBallGurl1425 9 years ago to Irma_Jean
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no prob!:)
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Irma_Jean 9 years ago to Irma_Jean
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I am totally going to walmart after school and getting some!! :)
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Irma_Jean 9 years ago to Irma_Jean
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ahh YESS
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Irma_Jean 9 years ago to YourFuckingBeautiful
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I'm just not fantastic haha
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Irma_Jean 9 years ago to NytemareLuvsYooh
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Sounds okay!
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Irma_Jean 9 years ago to xoEmmaLovesYouox
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Of course! All girls named Emma are gorgeous <3
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Irma_Jean 9 years ago to xoEmmaLovesYouox
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Best name ever!!! <3
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Irma_Jean 9 years ago to YourFuckingBeautiful
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I'm doing okay! How are you?
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Irma_Jean 9 years ago to YourFuckingBeautiful
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Aww thank you! You're beautiful! Like seriously you are :)
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Irma_Jean 9 years ago to xXCherryBabeXx
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That sounds like a fabulous experience! My dad is a talent agent so he got me my first job and it great to have him there with me lol. I got nominated for National American Miss but I didn't want to get into pageants, because I only get one chance and I have to make it perfect, but at shoots with nice photographers (sometimes a rarity) its no big deal if I do something dumb haha
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