Irma_Jean

Status: ILOVEYOU
Joined: December 26, 2011
Last Seen: 7 years
user id: 255758
Location: Missouri
Gender: F
I wish for a day where the only thing people dislike about me is that I'm not with them brightening their day. 

I don't really talk about this much, and we are a witty 'Family' and we need to start acting like it. So here it goes. I will tell you about myself.

I am 15, my name is Emma, and I am battling with depression and anxiety. It is a serious issue. My parents hate me for it. I am on Zoloft for it, but its so hard to get out of bed in the morning. I have missed school before I just couldn't get out of bed. The scars on my wrists, stomach, ankles, bottoms of my feet, and my thighs, are just things about me. If they could talk they would be able to tell you my life story. It really bothers me when people fake depression forattention, or they are completely fine but just feel ignored. I try and cover my scars, I hide them, most people don't know about them because it really is my coping mechanism, nota cry for attention. My dad loves me, theres no doubt about it, but he gets so mad at me. He doesn't understand it. All he can think about is that I'm young, I'm a model, I play competetive tennis and basketball, and we aren't struggling for money. Honestly, I wonder if he forgets that when I was 11 my best friend, Mikey, died from Mitral Valve Prolapse, or that when I was 12, my best friend Alexis died from Osteosarcoma, or that sometimes I get thrown around, or that last year I was beaten up in my foods class by 3 people because of my religion (that wasn't the only time its happened), or that I am constantly bullied because I'm tall, or because I'm a Baha'i not a Christian, does he forget that I am only 15 and he throws so much at me that I can't handle? Does he know that in the course of summer 2012, I've lost 2 of my best friends which caused them to talk to others and get them against me, too? Does he know that moving, finally getting settled, and then switching schools is hard to handle. Does he know that his verbal abuse just adds to my struggles everyday. I love him, but I just wish he could understand. 

It may sound strange but I am that girl, I am that girl that no matter her struggles she wont let anyone see it, and if someone else is upset she will make them laugh and be happy, secretly wishing someone would do that for her.

I love you all. When I finally do end life so my dad can go on with life and not worry about his daughter, so that no one will be bothered by me not being a Christian, so that no one will have to deal with me or my baggage, remember that my heart will belong to God and that you are loved, even if I was not.

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Cupcake145* 7 years ago on quote #6985896
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I feel really depressed
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Irma_Jean 7 years ago on quote #6985896
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I'm sorry, girlie. What's holding you down from being happy?
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Cupcake145* 7 years ago on quote #6985896
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The fact that i'm adopted and my new family hates me, my crush told me I can do better than (her) i'm bi plz dont get weirded out, and the fact that everyone calls me names such as ,,a B and much much more.
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Irma_Jean 7 years ago on quote #6985896
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How old are you? I only ask because kids are mean and I promise it does get better as you get older... Even though I know it seems like it won't... Is your crush bi as well? Even if she is and only you and few other people know she may not want everyone to know yet. As for your new family, my family and I don't get along at all, but if you're adopted then they had to pick you for some reason. I have made a pact with myself to work hard and save my money so when I'm 18 I can move out. Until then I decided to play the game my parents want me to. But tell me more about your family because I think if you try and work on your home situation first it will make dealing with other things easier because you might be able to have your family's help
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Cupcake145* 7 years ago on quote #6985896
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I am going to be 17 June 7th. My crush is lesbian. Yeah family life is hard but I get through it my life is like an up and down roller coaster. And awe i'm sorry you had to go through all of that but atleast you are strong and you are handling it the best way you can. Thanks for sharing and thanks for the advice.
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ZahraRawr 9 years ago on quote #6461244
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I'm sorry you go through that, witty family;3 Give us a chat I'll try and help;33
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a_k_l 9 years ago on quote #6360520
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I'm so so happy to hear you're alive <3 Hoping you will find the motivation to get better. Stay strong.
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gottalivetodie 9 years ago on quote #6360051
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You have so much to live for. I can't believe this but I'm worried right now and my stomach just dropped to the floor. Im crying and this isn't fair. I don't know what's going through your head right now but it'll pass. If you're talking about suicide, it's not the answer. Suicide is not going to help anything. Youre thinking about a permanent ending to a temporary problem. Please just think for one moment.,, please. This isn't want you want. Jdfbjakspwlrbwkshystvdhwjekslwla please.
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thehairycouch 9 years ago on quote #6089580
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we are EXACT opposites!!!!!
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thehairycouch 9 years ago on quote #6123980
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now will you do more???
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peacelovesmiles33324 9 years ago on quote #6103289
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NO AND I HOPE THEY NEVER DO :)
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Stiff_Smile 9 years ago on quote #6103289
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Yeah, hi, woah?
lol highlight the quote. xD
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One_Direction5 9 years ago on quote #6103289
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no,its just a rumor someone started!
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lozza821 9 years ago on quote #6103289
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no
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LandonIsWitty 9 years ago on quote #6082221
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Thank you..(:
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JennaBean 9 years ago on quote #6082221
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i agree yes right now im 12 but ill be 13 in about 2 and a half weeks
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dreamypink 9 years ago on quote #5530072
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Lol. Too bad the Jones Brothers aren't in anymore. LOl
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