I'm so broken. It has become obvious.I'm
emotionally destroyed and there is nothing to do but watch me
fall apart. Each day it gets worse nothing ever gets better.
I'm so alone in this world that its starting to really get to
me.I always have to remind myself its my fault for people not
liking me. Its all my fault. I am ugly and fat. Theres no one to
blame but myself. Its so hard because no one knows the real me.
They know me as the bubbly, outgoing, advice giving, fun girl.
Its sad that its just an act. Just a lie. Everyone says just
"get over it" but how do I get over something so CRUEL?
I can't let go of all the bullying and words said to me.
I'll never forget all the pain I was in.I will never forget
the night I was in so much pain I grabbed the razor and glided it
across my wrist just so I could get the pain I deserved.I'll
never forget the night I shoved two fingers down my throat just
to be "thin". I'll never forget the day I decided
that only a granola bar was the right amount to eat a day.
I'll never forget the day my mom gave up on me. I refuse to
forget the nights I cried myself to sleep with no one to tell me
its going to be okay. I won't forget the fact, I was sent to
live with The Dragon Lady because my mom gave up on me. I
can't forget about the 30+ cuts on my arm that I did because
I was so sad. Don't tell me to "get over it" you
know nothing. You think I like being sad? No, I hate it. But its
all I have. I've let it consume me. But when the time comes
I'm fighting back.
- Breegan N.