Today was my school
talent show.
Me, being myself - decided to sing
"Skyscraper" by Demi Lovato. I did my thing, I sang.
And, at the end - people were in tears and I got a standing
ovation. I have never felt so good about myself. The dean went
to take the microphone away, but I asked if I could say
something to my peers. He allowed me. That's when my heart
poured out.. "Thank you all, really. Now, I have something
to say." After that, it became dead silent.
"You're clapping for me now, right? Weren't half
of you guys the people who said I was 'fat' yesterday?
Yeah. Little do you know, I can't keep my food down because
of those things you say. I can go days without eating. I hope
you know that." Then, I had to stop because some girls
were laughing. I walked up to them and pulled up my bracelets.
"Hey, Bri. Look. Look at what YOU caused. Yes, YOU. You
practically put these scars on my wrist. Because of people like
you, people turn into people like me. Can I just ask why? Why
do you do this to me and so many others?" Her answer was
this; "Well, Nicole. I do it because people are losers, a
lot like you." And at that, I had enough. What did I say?
I said, "Bri, I'm done. I'm done with you. So is
everyone else. YOU NEED TO STOP. I'm sick of you. If you
don't stop soon, something WILL happen. It may happen to
me. Or to you. Or to that girl over there. Just, STOP. Ok? Go
on and try to tear me down, I will be rising from the ground.
Like a skyscraper." I turned around and walked away. I
wasn't finished though. I turned back around to face my
peers and said, "I thought suicide was the answer. But, I
KNOW it's not. Don't try it, guys. You hurt yourself,
you hurt your family. And it hurts your friends. Please. Talk
to me if you need anything." People clapped so loud, my
ears were about to bust. But, WAIT. I'm not done yet...
This really popular guy, Mike, came up to the front. He took
the microphone and said, "Nicole.. Thank you for giving me
the courage to do this." No one knew what was coming, but
what he said shocked so many people. "Bri, we're
through." I have never laughed harder in my life. Best day
ever? I think YES.
W
One day
you’ll meet a guy.
And ultimately, he’s going to find out.
How you chew, how you sip,
how you dance, how you smell at every point in the day.
How your face looks underneath all your makeup.
How you love chocolate, how you can be hyper at times,
how certain games and shows make you really happy.
How cranky you can get when you’re tired,
how you think you look bad in all your photos.
He’s going to know everything about you.
And you know
what?
He’s still going to
love
you.
I hate being insecure
I hate having the thoughts of thinking
i’m not pretty enough for
anything.
Sometimes, when I stare at myself in the mirror..
I wish I could just take a paper bag over my head.
I have so much
insecurities and then
when a girls walk past me
with flawless skin, nice clothes, beautiful hair, and a
gorgeous face..
my self esteem immediately drops but eventually,
i will have to learn how to love myself for who I am
before I love people for the way they
are.