Jasminekaybutterfly

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Joined: June 14, 2011
Last Seen: 1 decade
Birthday: March 19
user id: 183087
Location: Maine
Gender: F

I'm Jasmine, I was born on March 19th, 1997. I have been through so much. People don't realize how fragile I am. I cry so easily. But I don't choose to be that way. I have a lot of anger and pain inside of me, that no amount of time will make go away. It will always be there. On August 16th 2010 I was . I spent the first year after that not eating, cutting, smoking, drinking. Anything to kill the pain and make me forget. I had to deal with it all on my own. I had no help. Then I told my therapist who told my mom. And for the past year I have been fighting for justice. It hasn't been easy. I have tried to kill myself 12 times. My dad is an alcoholic that doesn't care about me, my siblings, or mom. I have been put through the ringer. Lets just say that. But people forget, and they think I am fine. But I'm not. I'm pretty miserable on the inside. But I've learned no one likes a sad girl. So I try to hide it all. 

But I do have an amazingly perfect boyfriend who makes it easier. We've been dating since 3/3/12. He's my best friend and boyfriend and I don't know where I'd be without him. He gives my life a meaning, and makes me feel special. He tells me that I'm beautiful, even though he knows what I think about myself. He seems to always know how to make me smile. I love him so much, and I will marry this boy someday. People spend their whole lives searching for a love like this. And I was lucky enough to find it early. He'll always be my boy, Through tuff, hard, and hell. Forever and always.


Quotes by Jasminekaybutterfly


Lie to me,
Convince me that I've been sick forever,
And all of this will all make sense when I get better.
 

Finally something was done!
He got suspended
& that means he cant go to the homecoming dance. (:
I win.
I feel like I could wave my fist in front of your face.
And you wouldn't flinch or even feel a thing.
You retreated to your silent corner,
Like you decided the fight was over for ya.
Everyone you know is trying to smooth it over.
Find a way to make the hurt go away.
Everyone you know is trying to smooth it over.
Everyone needs a floor they could fall through.
But I won't let you make the great escape.
I'm never gonna watch you checkin out of this place.
I'm not going to loose you,
Because the passion and pain are gonna keep you alive someday.

Pink- The Great Escape
I eat my feelings.
Thats why my pants dont fit anymore.
I feel so alone, all the time.
And the only person that makes me feel any different
Cant be with me all the time.
I hate being so broken,
And I want to stop crying.
Why does every moment have to be so hard?

"I hate when guys aren't respectful of my baby."
- My boyfriend
 

I just want the pain to go away.
At the time I underestimated myself. Now Looking back, I realize how wrong I was to do that.
Dear Diary,
My head is a scary place to be. My depression is back with a vengence. I've cried everyday since school started. It sucks to know how hard I worked this summer to try and get happy so I'd make friends. Just for me to go back to the way I was before. But i'm trying so hard to hide it around people. I try to push the sadness out of my mind and put on a smile. Its starting to work.
my depression has taken over.
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