i hate that im not good
enough. i
can't get a boyfriend. it's not that i'm desperate,
it's just that i need somebody. somebody to show me that
i'm important, & to be there. somebody who i get along so
well with, that i care about, and i know he cares about me. its
not that i want a boyfriend, just to say i have one, its just
that i see all these couples, so happy together. i try to tell my
self, that its fine, i can keep on waiting & someday ill find
an amazing guy. but every time i get the courage to tell a guy
how i feel, i get rejected. i just don't get it. what do
these other girls have that i don't? i'm always my self
around guys, or at least i try to be. but i still get rejected.
i'm just not good enough. maybe my body isn't hot enough?
i'm not funny enough? i'm not smart enough? i don't
get it. all my friends tell me that any guy would be lucky to
have me, because they tell me i am funny, i am smart, & that
i am pretty. but yet, here i am. 16 going on 17, still never had
a real boyfriend. i just don't get it. why can't i have
what everybody else has. i'm just not good enough for any guy
to take me; or give me a chance.