JustPretend

Dont listen you a word they say

Yeah New years was fun,
And hey i expected nothing from it.
Maybe a conversation every now and then.
But no worries you wont even look me in the eye and you pretend to not hear me.
I'm sorry but was NY that bad for you that you have to ignore me?
Thanks you really, really are a jerk!

Everyone tell's me to keep fighting you'll make it through,

Through to what? 
I mean yeah I'll move out of home but then what?
This hell i live in has messed me up so badly I'm unsure of a future.
I dont have the grades to get me through to a scholarship...
I cant get my name out there for a sporting scholarship...
and i just dont have the money for a real education.

So what am i fighting for?
Average job, 
two bedroom house 
crappy car
hundreds and thousands of dollars worth of debt...

I give up the fight, 
I can hope for the best
and prepare for the worst

Theres no pretending
The lights just not that bright.




 

I only admit my problems to witty,
As witty is the only place that dosent judge me or try to send me away
I've talked to counclers and all of the above but they judge me
My school year adviser ignores me
My mum helps my weight issues buy commenting on whatever i eat...
She thinks im fine,
I mean hey I have average grades and do sports..
Little does she know...
 

I dont want to be anything,
Other than what I've been trying to be lately....

I'm scared...
I just feel like,
Like I'm not good enough for anyone...
I'm in year 11 now and I dont think im good enough to become someone..
I still dont understand class work and spend my days in a daze...
I'm stuck,
I dont think I'm good enough...

It not sad when someone dies.
Whats sad is when someone dies,
And something dies inside of us...
When we dont just bury a Friend,
We bury part of ourselves...
 

Are you ok?
I dont know maybe:
I mean mums closed the door and changed the keys
I mean im 16 and trying to go to school
But sometime i cry myself to sleep
I mean i try to be strong but i cant survive every hurricane
Yet you still ask me if im ok?. 
What do you think... 

Be Great.
Be Amazing.
Be everything you ever wanted.

We all have the ability to become Amazing.