Imperfect Butterfly *

So, the truth is it was much more serious then what I wrote above. After many many years, coming back and reading what I wrote was a surprise. I remember writing something more, I thought I came clean here about what happened. For a long time I did not want to read it becaue I already live with the horrid flashbacks; I was under the assumption it would trigger my ptsd. Instead it made me realise just how far I've came and grown. This summer was thankfully the time I came out and told the truth about what was going on, stood up for myself and made sure it would never happen again. My father did not do anything as mentioned above, nor did his wife; I told my father that "he's done things to me for years" not that "he talks dirty to me" as I wrote in the original post. The following day after speaking to my father; I came downstairs terrified but also feeling a sense of relief that things will finally stop. However, everything was the same as every other day. I was defeated in that moment but decided if no one else is going to protect me, I'll protect myself. I went into the washroom and called my mom and felt her break, felt her anger and rage when the words came out of my mouth. She was leaving and coming to kill him but as my little sisters were in the house and not wanting to lose my mom aswell, I told her how much it meant that she wanted to protect me and I no longer felt like I was the only one who loved and protected me. My brother and his mom were 10 minutes away, my mom called them and they were at my dads house to pick me up in 15 minutes. This was the last time I went to there house for many years. Eventually years later his grandchildren came out and spoke her truth; revealed that he abused both her and her sister. My stepmom eventually kicked him out of the house; but he still came around. I Eventually started to come over to visit my little sisters at my dads, here and there (as long as pedo was no where near the house). I survived, I am still here and everything I've been through has made me who I am today. From the age of four til I was 14 he took away my innocence, peace, self-love, the ensured I never felt safe or worthy, i felt disgusting. But slowly I gained it all back and more. He passed away a few months ago; I no longer have to worry about my sister's or no one else getting hurt by him ever again.

I am strong and thankful I had the strength that summer to stop his twisted, sick mind from hurting me ever again. I am thankful I am here today, more understanding and wiser than ever before. Grow through what we go through!

This honestly almost made me cry. It's exactly how i feel, thank you for posting this. :$

Honestly this is pointless on many levels.
We are all suppose to be family on Witty and a lot of people are acting like enemies. It is up to us to keep this a peaceful zone and some people are making it worse for people that actually need some real help!
All I am going to say is, some people just need to grow up or get out.

LOL! <3

why hello : )

Life iss nothing but a bumpy road, i don't know which way to go.
but thank you,

hunny , it is not worth it !
i have had my fav uncle and 5 cousins really close to me commit suicide. i have cried ane cried it isnt worth it ! take all the pain you are going through and help it to make it in life ! <3

kay , there is some messed up people sometimes.
but think about it , they are making $450 just working four days a week.
thats freaking amazing :D
i am a sexy teenager , i d work there.

I would be kind of scared for my life .
Then it would kick in he drunk as then i would start dying of laughter. ;)

Amen , ;) <3

Thanks Nella ,
Just gatta keep you're head up till you finally reach the top ;) <3

Awee I love you too girly , <3

I am in History on witty profiles , been about 30 minutes yet my teacher hasn't noticed either holy lol ;)

Go Portugal ; )

LMFAAOO , listen girl it ain't you . If anyone *turns* gay/lez they always were just didn't finally realize until they started to actually feel sexually attracted to anyone .

It didn't work .. .! LMFAO

well , kinda lying use to .
I m Portugese and therre out );
So now no lol .

yeah that is what she said ,
But do you know that is actually a really like awesome one of the best poems out there .
(will so i hear )
;)

Ahha , nice ! Man I rather have Micheal Jackson then Justin Beieber anyday .
He is so gay , no litterly he actually said he was on a tv show i think Tyra Banks. ;)

Eminem is the best !
He is sexy (: