Raeleen (: *

Status: ~Raeleen~
Joined: April 6, 2012
Last Seen: 9 years
Birthday: June 18
user id: 289838
Location: Pittsburgh, PA
Gender: F



~Darling, I'm a nightmare dressed like a daydream~

~Raeleen~
~16~
~Sophmore~


Quotes by Raeleen (: *

Nobody told me that being a teenager included crying myself to sleep every night and always feeling like sh/t.
I know girls who are trying to fit into the social norm, 
Like squeezing into last year's prom dress 
I know girls who are low rise, mac eyeshadow, and binge drinking 
I know girls that wonder if they're disaster and sexy enough to fit in 
I know girls who are fleeing bombs from the mosques of their skin 
Playing russian roulette with death; it's never easy to accept 
That our bodies are fallible and flawed 

But when do we draw the line? 
When the knife hits the skin? 
Isn't it the same thing as purging, 
Because we're so obsessed with death, 
Some women just have more guts than others
 
The funny thing is women like us don't shoot 
We swallow pills, still wanting to be beautiful at the morgue, 
Still proceeding to put on make-up, 
Still hoping that the mortician finds us f/ckable and attractive 
We might as well be buried with our shoes, 
and handbags and scarves, girls 

We flirt with death everytime we etch a new tally mark into our skin 
I know how to split my wrists like a battlefield too 
But the time has come for us to reclaim our bodies 
Our bodies deserve more than to be war-torn and collateral, 
Offering this f/ckdom as a pathetic means to say, 
"I only know how to exist when i am wanted" 
Girls like us are hardly ever wanted you know 
We're used up and sad and drunk and 
perpetually waiting by the phone for someone to pick up 
and tell us that we did good 
You did good. 

I know I am because I said I am
I know I am because I said I am
I know I am because I said I am,
My body is home 
My body is home
I know I am because I said I am
I know I am because I said I am
I know I am because I said I am

Try this 
Take your hands over your bumpy lovebody naked 
And remember the first time you touched someone 
With the sole purpose of learning all of them 
Touched them because the light was pretty on them 
And the dust in the sunlight danced the way your heart did 
Touch yourself with a purpose 

Your body is the most beautiful royal, 
fathers and uncles are not claiming your knife anymore, 
are not your razor, no 
Put the sharpness back 
Lay your hands flat and feel the surface of scarred skin 

I once touched a tree with charred limbs 
the stump was still breathing 
But the tops were just ashy remains, 
I wonder what it's like to come back from that 
Sometimes I feel a forest fire erupting from my wrists 
And the smoke signals sent out are the most beautiful things 
I've ever seen 
Love your body the way your mother loved your baby feet 
And brother, arm wrapping shoulders, and remember, 

This is important: 
You are worth more than who you f/ck 
You are worth more than a waistline 
You are worth more than beer bottles displayed like druken artifacts
You are worth more than any naked body could proclaim 
In the shadows, more than a man's whim 
or your father's mistake 

You are no less valuable as a size 16, than a size 4 
You are no less valuable as a 32A than a 36C, 
Your sexiness is defined by concentric circles within your wood; 
It is wisdom 
You are a godd/mn tree stump with leaves sprouting out: 
reborn
Don't look at me,
You've got a girl at home,
And everybody knows that,
Everybody knows that,
Don't look at me,
You've got a girl at home,
And everybody knows that

I don't even know her,
But I feel a responsibility,
To do what's upstanding and right,
It's kinda like a code, yeah,
And you've been getting closer and closer,
And crossing so many lines

And it would be a fine proposition,
If I was a stupid girl,
But honey I am no-one's exception,
This I have previously learned

So don't look at me,
You've got a girl at home,
And everybody knows that,
Everybody knows that,
Don't look at me,
You've got a girl at home,
And everybody knows that,
Everybody knows that,

I see you turn off your phone,
And now you got me alone,
And I say,
Don't look at me,
You've got a girl at home,
And everybody knows that,
Everybody knows that

I just wanna make sure,
You understand perfectly,
You're the kind of man who makes me sad,
While she waits up,
You chase down the newest thing,
And take for granted what you have

And it would be a fine proposition,
If I was a stupid girl,
And yeah I might go with it,
If I hadn't once been just like her

Don't look at me,
You've got a girl at home,
And everybody knows that,
Everybody knows that,
Don't look at me,
You've got a girl at home,
And everybody knows that,
Everybody knows that,

I see you turn off your phone,
And now you've got me alone,
And I say,
Don't look at me,
You've got a girl at home,
And everybody knows that,
Everybody knows that

Call a cab,
Lose my number,
You're about to lose your girl,
Call a cab,
Lose my number,
Let's consider this lesson learned

Don't look at me,
You've got a girl at home,
And everybody knows that,
Everybody knows that,
Don't look at me,
You've got a girl at home,
And everybody knows that,
Everybody knows that,

Wanna see you pick up your phone,
And tell her you're coming home,
Don't look at me,
You've got a girl at home,
And everybody knows that,
Everybody knows that,
Don't look at me,
You've got a girl at home,
And everybody knows that,
Everybody knows that

It would be a fine proposition,
If I hadn't once been just like her
I'm walking fast through the traffic lights 
Busy streets and busy lives 
And all we know is touch and go 
We are alone with our changing minds 
We fall in love till it hurts or bleeds, or fades in time 

And I never saw you coming 
And I'll never be the same 

You come around and the armor falls 
Pierce the room like a cannon ball 
Now all we know, is don't let go 
We are alone just you and me 
Up in your room and our slates are clean 
Just twin fire signs, four blue eyes 

So you were never a saint 
And I loved in shades of wrong 
We learn to live with the pain 
Mostly of broken hearts 
But this love is brave and wild 

And I never saw you coming 
And I'll never be the same  

This is a state of grace 
This is a worth while fight 
Love is a ruthless game 
Unless you play it good and right 
These are the hands of fate 
You're my Achilles heel 
This is the golden age of something good 
And right and real 

And I never saw you coming 
And I'll never be the same

I never saw you coming
And I'll never be the same

This is the state of grace
This is a worth while fight
Love is a ruthless game
Unless you play it good and right
Long handwritten note, deep in your pocket
Words, how little they mean, when you're\ a little too late
I stood right by the tracks, your face in a locket
Good girls, hopeful they'll be and lonely will wait

We had a beautiful magic love there
What a sad beautiful tragic love affair

In dreams, I meet you in long conversation
We both wake in lonely beds, and different cities
And time is taking a sweet time erasing you
And you've got your demons and darling they all look like me

Cause we had a beautiful magic love there
What a sad beautiful tragic love affair

Distance, timing, break down, fighting
Silence, the train runs off its tracks
Kiss me, try to fix it, would you just try to listen
Hang up, give up, for the life of us we can't get it back

A beautiful magic love there
What a sad beautiful tragic, beautiful tragic, beautiful
What we had, a beautiful magic love there
What a sad beautiful tragic love affair
We had a beautiful magic love there
What a sad beautiful tragic love affair
And you've got your demons and darling they all look like me 
Which is messier my hair or my life?
'Youre going to regret getting tattoos and piercings'

B.itch I regret being born.
Boys are scary. They go from "aw you're adorable" to "send me butt pics & sit on my face" in 2 seconds and I can't handle that transition.
Imagine being attractive like how cool would that be???