KaraNicolee

This isn't meant to be pretty, I just need to vent.
A year ago I was perfectly fine, I was h a p p y. And then I found out I had tachycardia-An abnormally rapid heart rate.Not only is it that, I also have an anurism in my heart.And a doctor who actually specializes in this has never seen anything like it.I've been to a doctor more then I ever wanted to be. And it doesnt sound that bad, but it is. I'd get so close to passing out. I have to take 4 pills everyday for it.Test after test and doctor to doctor. And the reason why I'm venting is because I don't want to fight this anymore. I'm tired of being tested on.I'm tired of scaring my parents.My mom did everything right during her pregnancy with me. And yet theres some people who smoke and drink while their pregnant and their child turns out fine. And you know, I'm okay if this kills me by any chance. This struggle has been my fate ever since I was born, and I know that. This was all actually m e a n t to happen. And the only chance I really have to make it go away is by something called an oblation. Their gunna have to kill apart of my heart and it might not even work. So Im tired of casuing my family all this when theres not even a good chance that Im gunna be ok. I don't wanna do this anymore.

Thanks if you read this, I don't want any fave's, I just need to let that out.Not only  

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