KarlaKutsWithKrayons

Status: I always slap a smile of my face, even if I'm drownding in my tears.
Joined: April 7, 2012
Last Seen: 1 decade
Birthday: August 11
user id: 290072
Location: California.
Gender: F
 Hey everyone. 
 I'm 15 years of age.
 I love all animals.
 I'm trying my very best not to hurt myself.
The song is Body Love by Mary Lamert


  In the end I just want to be happy with myself.
 
 

Quotes by KarlaKutsWithKrayons

Me: My stomach hurts...
Stomach: You haven't eatten for quite a while..
Brain: No because she's fat. Fat, fat, fatty!!!
Stomach: She's thin enough!!
Me: I still look fat...
Brain: Well it's because you are. Look at your legs!! Fat!!!
Stomach: 110.. She's hurting.. Brain, let her eat.
Me: *winces* I'm okay, I can take that pain.
Brain: Good little fat girl.
Me: I mean, I cut... How much worse can this be?
Stomach: .... You're killing us...
Brain: She's fine! She just needs to puke the pain away.
Me: ... If it makes me skinny. I'll keep doing it..
Stomach: ...I'm not sure how much of this I can take..
Brain: Shut up and let the fat pig puke!!

Reality.
It f*cking sucks.
I hate feeling like this. I've been like this since thursday. The day I went back to school. The day I had a panic attack at school and no one noticed, even if I was being pressed against his chest with tears in my eyes. The day I broke down crying and feeling my chest tighten. The day I selpt for a while. The day I had to fight away.

Sorry, just a vent.
That moment when you've had a bad day.
And you get home but you're to sad and to tired to cut.
So youjust sleep and wish you never wake up.
Rachel Feruson~ Never Good Enough


Everybody said she was a winner
No one knew the secret kept within her
Starving for perfection
Hating her reflection

She tries harder than the average teen
An over achiever with low self esteem
Wants to look like a star, but she takes it too far
She's Never Good Enough
Wants to be Mary-Kate
Perfect weight, eighty-eight
She's Never Good Enough

Now her friends know all about her problems
They all try their best to help her solve them
She feels like she's on trial
But she's still in denial

She tries harder than the average teen
An over achiever with low self esteem
Wants to look like a star, but she takes it too far
She's Never Good Enough
Wants to be Mary-Kate
Perfect weight, eighty-eight
She's Never Good Enough

Who's in control now
Who's in control now!

Everybody said she was a winner
No one knew the secret kept within her

She tries harder than the average teen
An over achiever with low self esteem
Wants to look like a star, but she takes it too far
She's Never Good Enough
Wants to be Mary-Kate
Perfect weight eighty-eight
She's Never Good Enough

She tries harder than the average teen
An over...
My advice to get through life.

~ Don't care.
~ Shut up.

If you do this than you can not get hurt.
He's such a beautiful disaster.
Ive been clean for four days.
<3


I feel proud of myself.
Four days strong.
Not a fresh cut in sight.
I am happy.
Yes, I know this wont last; but I wont cut.
I'm strong, and I don't care about all the negative stuff others have to say.
For example today;
Some girls in my class made fun of me because I refuse to go up in front of class. They said something along the lines of; 'What, do you think the boogy man is going to pop out?'
I didn't let them get to me to much. I held my head high.
And I am proud!!
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