So my prom
And idk. I'm going to post a
little story (because I know you guys are so interested in my
Basically at first I was quite looking forward to it, but the
closer it got the less so.
And on the actual day I was really really not wanting to go,
idk what it was, I just could have thought of anything better to
But obviously it was too late to not go.
So I went, I got all dressed up and everything.
And for a while it was actually really good.
Like we had our meal and photos and awards and stuff and it was
But then wow did it go downhill.
Like I don't even know what happened, but the music started
and everyone was dancing,
and I was there with my friends surrounded by everyone dancing
and singing and laughing,
and I just came crashing down.
I don't know what did it, I had been fine all night.
And in fact I've been fine for a while, like I've had
moments but other that its been okay.
So I thought this would pass and it didn't.
And then my friend Cal noticed and he took me outside,
and I was really glad he did because I feel so comfortable around
him and I thought maybe being just with him would help.
But then all my other friends wanted to come because they thought
we were just going outside and didn't realise anything was
So we were all out there and omg I felt like I was screaming
I just wanted to leave but there was no way of getting home until
later and I knew if I tried to go anywhere else they'd notice
something was up.
And I didn't want to ruin their night so I stayed silent and
ugh it was terrible.
I didn't go back inside for a really really long time.
I felt like I was more free outside.
Then all my friends went in and it was just me and Cal.
And he asked me what was wrong, and I have never been more please
that it was dark,
because I started crying, like I kept silent so he didn't
know and hid my face incase the lighting changed.
But I felt that in that moment I was really alone, because
he's not going to be with me next year,
he has a different college to go to.
And I really just don't want him to go because he's the
only person I could ever talk to about this feeling I get.
Like none of my other friends would ever understand it.
And I don't know why I've spent ages typing this all
but basically that's my story of how my prom went from really
to making me feel completely alone..