I know how you feel. You just need to find your "thing." It's not a person, or an animal or anything living. You can't rely on those. What you can rely on is something you're truly passionate about, that gets you through the day and makes you realize you're not alone. You'll find it. One day it'll pop up right in front of your face, but you should be alive to see it.
i feel you
they dont understand.