We all know this particular
feeling.
Everytime your phone gets a
message,
before you look at it, you silently
wish that its that one guy
friend.
The one who actually listens to your problems,
and who really understands what you feel.
You always think of him,
because you can only talk to him a few minutes a day.
Almost every day. . .
He's your best friend.
He's the only reason you get on the computer
anymore.
You can trust him, and know he will gaurd your secret,
with his life.
But. . .
Your only form of communication to him is Aim.
And for awhile, thats just fine.
For, he promises to be on every night possible.
Because he knows how much he means to you.
He has the biggest heart you've ever seen in a guy.
Months go bye. . .
Life's good!
You guys a closer then ever.
Your life is amazing, no pain at all.
But you realize,
if he stops talking to you. . .
Your life will resume its natural course.
Pain.
Suffering.
Loneliness.
Dark.
You push this thought away,
the "It couldnt ever happen to me" mirage.
Life goes on.
.
.
.
One day, he's not on.
2 days.
3 days.
4 days.
1 month.
2 months.
You get a
text.
His computer broke.
He's not getting a new one.
That night you cry yourself to sleep.
Because you know,
how hard you worked to get to where you were with him.
Was washed away, doesn't exsist anymore.
He's not there for you anymore.
He cant be.