KiwiBaby12

Do you remember the time I brought you to meet my mum, and she laughed because she thought it was a joke someone as sweet and innocent as you could like me? You just wrapped your hands around my arm and said, 'Your son is rough around the edges, but I do love him.' I should have said it back.

How about the time the boys and I came to visit you when you were sick in bed? We saw your mom and house, which you never wanted us to see. We didn't comment on it at all, we all just sat in your room and watched movies. I can't believe you got us all to watch Beauty and The Beast and The Little Mermaid for hours.

Shopping with you was hell. I never knew a sixteen year old girl could shop that much. It's kinda of crazy, actually. I liked when we got to go wig shopping the best. When Tommy and Gunner would try on the wigs with you. And Matty would style them. Then when Randy shaved his head with you I knew he loved you almost as much as I did. Not as much though. Never as much.

I love thinking about the time I sang to you. The first week we met. When I propped you up on a stool and belted my heart out while singing that song by One Direction you loved. Last First Kiss. We hadn't even kissed yet, but I knew I was wrapped around your finger. It's weird to think how much that song relates now.

Our first kiss was amazing. I'm not even going to try to make it seem any less hot and heavy than it was. When we were in the elevator, and you were in that short blue dress. The one that cupped and clung to your body perfectly. And those black heels. Oh man, your legs looked amazing. You were beautiful. You are beautiful. When we got to my floor and I brought you into the hotel room. I made sure Randy was still gone and we sat on the couch. We started watching tv, and you kept cuddling closer to me. My eyes always went down to your long sexy legs. Your dress was rising up. You looked at me and shut the tv off. You moved so you were in my lap, not caring about your dress anymore. You murmured "kiss me" and I did. I pulled you into me. We fit perfectly together, and what happened after that was even better.

The seven months I had with you was the best time I've ever had. I never knew I could love someone as much as I love you. You made me feel like I was king of the world.

You made such a big impact on the boys and I. I began thinking about all of our times together while you were in surgery. I wanted to begin reminiscing once you were out. I was so excited. I couldn't describe how much I love you. So many new adventures were to come after your surgery. After you came out all smiles and fixed. Brand new. And we would spend even more time together. Forever. The promise ring was burning a hole in my pocket, baby. I was so excited! So were the boys. When you said bye to us before going in there, and gave me that kiss, I knew for a fact I loved you. I think you knew it too. I barely even said it. I moaned it against your lips. There were tears while we kissed, baby. A mixture of mine and yours. You must've known. You must've. It all makes sense now. And when we released I said, "I'll be right here when you get out." You nodded, crying even more. I was going to give you the ring when you came back out.

But you didn't.

I love you, Gummybear. You were the most important chapter in this story I call life. You made me who I am. And I'll love you forever. You're my guardian angel, and I was your Prince.

Until we meet again; Finn.♥

Maybe
someday things will actually fall into place.