I'm really concerned about relationships right now. I know
I'm only 13, but still, it seems like all the guys in the world
are either: dumb, perverted, mean / d-bags, twice my age, famous,
or, I hate to say it, but, ugly. Everywhere I look I never see what
I want in a guy. Never had my first kiss, never even been in a
relationship. I'm also concerned that I might even be a
lesbian, because I realize that you can easily find pretty, smart,
nice, non-perverted girls out there, and it scares me. A lot. I
feel like I'll only find my perfect match on June 31st in
Hogwarts or Narnia. I don't even know anymore. I have no faith
in guys anymore. I try and dream about a perfect relationship, but
I end up having some random dream. If I could lucid dream (control
what happens in my dream), I would dream I had the perfect
boyfriend, and I would never want to wake up. Because I hate all
guys. All because they're not good enough. </3