W͟o̶̷͡ŕ̡́͞d̸̨͝͠s̷̵̢͠
͏o̡̨̢f̶̴̷́ ̴́͘a̵͟͏̸͟
̵̵̨͜D͜͠͝y̷̡͘͞͡i̴̢̢̕͞n̸̵̛͞͝ǵ̢͢͡͞
̷̀͢͡M̧͢a̴̡̨̕͟ń̴͟͞͏
I'm just sitting here.
I can't think straight
I can't look straight
I think I'm crying,
But I'm not sure
All I know
Is that the darkness is creeping into my sight
Tugging at my soul
It wants me to follow it
To join it's never ending dance
But...
I..
I don't want to.
My life is just getting good.
I have friends I can trust now.
I found the man of my dreams.
I don't want it all to go away
Just as soon as it gets good.
If there is a God out there
Then I must ask
Why me?
Why the hell would I be the one who stood out to you?
My whole life I tried to blend in with the crowd
I did as I was told
And I didn't ask questions
So why did you pick my life to make a hell?
I guess I'm glad you picked mine
And not someone else's
But honestly,
Why do you have to pick anyone at all?
This is why I don't believe in 'God'
Where the hell is your God when you need him most?
He's up in the sky, living the life
Killing babies and giving children Cancer
That darkness
It's getting closer now
I can feel it
My heart feels as though it will stop at any moment
I've never been scared of death before
So why am I scared now?
I just don't understand.
My breath is getting shallower
I know this is the end
I know this is goodbye
Please,
Don't cry for me
I've done nothing of importance
Just
Save your tears for when you need them
For when someone special dies or something
Farewell my friends
Stay strong and beautiful.