"whats
wrong?"
what I want to
say:
I have all these words stuck in my heart, so many things I wish I
could find the courage to say to you and I just cant. And when
you finally call me at night, I try to give you hints, I put my
heart on my sleeve and every day you ignore it. And every
time you mention another girl, I can feel myself breaking and
last night...last night I shattered. Everything you want with
her, I want with you. And I can't stand the fact you
don't realize that everything she could give you, I could
give you and more. Whats wrong? I will always just be
your friend and you will always be my everything. We want
different things and I just can't bring myself to accept
that.
What I do say:
Nothing. I'm just tired.
I get a text from you and my whole face lights up,
you call me every night and we talk, about everything, for hours
and even when we run out of things to talk about I stay on the phone
just because I love the sound of your voice
I tell you about how my day was horrible
and I tell you about my guy problems
and you tell me I deserve better
and you're the only person who makes me feel special
who makes me feel good enough,
when I spend my whole day hearing Im not
And you remember everything.
about me, and us and our conversations,
things hate, things I love, what annoys me, my biggest
insecurities.
I just absolutely love talking to
you
But then I remember
I always just be your best
friend