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I have a boyfriend and we have been dating for a couple months and i know he likes me and stuff but i just wonder why he is with me and likes me all the time and like i dont want to lose him but i feel like i am going to becasue of how insecure i am and like i feel like im just boring and he will get tired of me and i dont know i need somewhere to vent and i dont know what to do. like i havent liked someone in two years and i never let anyone in and now that i have found someone that makes me this happy it freaks me out. he is the only one that makes me feel like i am not alone and he makes me feel like he actually cares about me and stufff. and im sorry this is long and i know not a  lot of people aren't reading this and stuff i jiust need somewhere where my brain can write down everything it is thinking because oh my god i love this guy and all i want to do is make him happy but what if i cant do that. he seems so sad all the time and i dont know what i can do to make him feel better becasue i dont even know how to make myself feel better. 

I haven't been on here in a while. It has probably been about a year and a half, and I have changed so much. I never felt like anybody cared about what I had to say, and I would just type to type, and that was okay with me. this is a place where I can go and just type to type and I don't care if it makes sense, because who reads my post anyway? I'm hoping I write on here more.. because I've missed it.