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Hi, Mommy.
I'm
your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks
old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I
promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is
John, and I've got beautiful brown eyes and black hair.
Well, I don't have it yet, but I will when I'm born.
I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call
me your one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy
mostly, but we have each other. We'll help each other, and
love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow
up.
Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so
excited to tell him about me! He
wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think
that you noticed, but he did. He started
to talk about something called wedlock,
and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I
understand yet. You were still happy,
though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall
backward, and your hands flying up to
protect me. I was okay... but I was very
sad for you. You were crying then,
Mommy. That's a sound I don't like.
It doesn't make me feel good. It
made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not
sure if I do. It wasn't right. You
say he loves you... why would he hurt you?
I don't like it, Mommy.
Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little
bit bigger, and you're so proud of
me! You went out with your mommy to buy new
clothes, and you were so so so happy.
You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when
I'm happiest. And you talk to me,
and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I
will make you proud, and I will love you
with all of my heart.
I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it
because you put your hands on your belly
to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I
love you, Mommy.
Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really
scared. He was acting funny and he
wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I
don't know why, but that's what
he said. And he hit you again. I got
angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I
won't let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he
is a good person, I think he's bad.
But he hit you, and he said he didn't
want us. He doesn't like me. Why
doesn't he like me, Mommy?
You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is
everything okay?
It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You
haven't talked to me or touched me
or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy?
I still love you. I think you feel sad.
The only time I feel you is when you
sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you
hug me with your arms, and I feel safe
and warm again. Why don't you do that when you're awake, any more?
I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you
proud of me? We're going somewhere
today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like
a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor
when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you
that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't
wait.
Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still
beating, but I don't know what you
are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I
think something's going to happen
soon. I'm really, really, really
scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love
me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!
Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please
make them stop! It feels bad! Please,
Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!
Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in
heaven with the angels now. They told me
what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.
Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me
any more? Why did you get rid of me?
I'm really, really, really sorry if I did
something wrong, Mommy. I love you,
Mommy! I love you with all of my heart.
Why don't you love me? What did I do
to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not
care about me, and not talk to me.
Didn't I love you enough? Please say you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the
clouds and see your face and grow up and
be a doctor. I don't want to be here,
I want you to love me again! I'm
really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you!
I love you, Mommy.