LivingButWantingToDie

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I know it's going to be hard without her dad in her life, i'm worried it's going to cause problems for her when she's older.. Maybe she won't quite understand. It's really so hard to stay away from negativity during a time like this. Losing Caleb was so unexpected, completely the last thiing I would have ever imagined happening. He had a heart transplant, he received a heart from a 19 year old boy who was in a car accident, and the doctors said that his heart problems should be stopped after that.. It was so incredible to hear the news that they were able to get a heart for Caleb, the story behind it all is so moving, so inspiring and I couldn't stop thanking the family of the son who's heart caleb received. He called me during school and just said how it was hard for him to breathe, like there was a lot of pressure built up in his chest, but he said he would wait for me to get home from school to take him in to the doctor and when we got there, they said blood clots already went through his lungs, so they put him on blood thinners saying that would help... Caleb said he was feeling better, the doctors said he should be getting way better and should be able to get out of the hospital.. all the sudden, it seemed like just seconds it was all turned around for the worst.. The blood clots went through his heart and they weren't able to save him.. I feel helpless, lonely, completely empty with no feeling, completely hollowed out without him.. And I'm worried for Kenley and her future.. and I miss Caleb so damn much that it hurts.

You're gorgeous!! <3

Aww thanks. You're beautiful! <33

You're welcome, and thank you <3

Its definitely not easy. We're moving on through though.. I really don't think I'd be able to survive if I didn't have kenley.. I'm so thankful, but it saddens me when I see caleb in her face. But then again, kenley is my world and I'm the luckiest to be able to be blessed with her. But not having Caleb around is heart wrenching.. I miss him more everyday he's gone and I have so much time to have to realize he's not coming home but my mind just won't and can't accept it. But kenley is healthy and she's beautiful. She looks so much like Caleb. It just kills me knowing she will never be able to know him personally..
Caleb grew up without his dad because he passed away when Caleb was 11 and Caleb always told me it gets really hard sometimes.. I don't want to have to put kenley through that.

I think you are beautiful inside and out... You are gorgeous and a lovely person and you shouldn't be depressed... There are people that care about you and I a, one of them :) <333

Thanks.. But there really aren't and honestly you don't even know me so how can you care about a person you don't even know?

Because i know how it is to feel depressed and i know how sad it is for the family to loose their child or best friend or girlfriend... And I don't want you to do something you'll regret but it is too late.... When you feel sad talk to me okay?

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Lol! xD

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Thanks! I got it from 1dcursors.tumblr.com :)

Yeah their songs are on sound cloud . And on their Facebook page . That was their first video so far to start everything for them . Ill give you the link for their Facebook page https://www.facebook.com/pages/BOMD/199293883465137

I'll like the page as soon as I get ungrounded -_- lol. There really good!

Okay . That sucks , but thanks :) it means alot to me ! They have their first show in may 4th so hopefully soon they will have more songs & CDs & famous . :) but thanks again

Aw, you are so pretty and I love the song on your profile c:

Thanks , that means alot to me . And id be happy to hear your story as well. And ill always be here for you too just a comment away .

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http://www.thatssotrue.com/Funny/True--Man/171736 Lol

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Do not be sad. Especially because of people and their words and actions! They never think, so never be let down or have your mood drowning. You are special in so many ways and your username breaks my heart. YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY! So don't let me down, and be smiling for the rest of your life :)

It's simple to say, but hard to do. It's not just "people" an there words, it's MY FAMILY. My own flesh & blood. I don't deserve to be happy. I never have & never will. I let everyone down.

Sweetheart, can you tell me why do you feel this way? You certainly DO NOT dereve to be sad. Please don't say that, it breaks my heart. I am so sad to see you feeling like this. Just tell me what's wrong. I promise to give my best to make you feel happy.

I feel this way because when I was 3 years old, I was mulested by my father. Then a few years later I was about 6, 7, and I was ! But my moms ex husband. I live in this house where I'm treated like s.h.it. I've had to grow up so fast it't not even funny. I can't handle knowing I'm not good enough for anyone. and on top of everything the one guy I've ever loved doesn't even care even though he says he does. I'm bullied everyday not knowing whats going to happen. I've tried numbing the pain and nothing works. I cut, I take pills I do pretty much everything. I hate life. I hate my life. I can't stand it anymore. I can't live anymore. I've been strong for to long and I'm just giving up. I don't care anymore. I make everyone else around me happy. I seem like the happiest girl ever! But if people really knew me they would know I'm not the happiest person ever. I hate life.

Star Paige!!! I am going to kill you myself if I ever hear you say this stuff ever again!!! You are my BEST FRIEND AND I LOVE YOU!!! I better NEVER hear you say that you are going to seriously kill yourself! You have no idea how much everyone will miss you and I know you way too well and I know you're rolling your eyes when I say that and thinking "No, they won't." but d.amnit yes they will! I WILL! No matter what, even if you don't have anyone else, you will ALWAYS have me! Look at all the s.hit that we have been through together! Now you tell me one other person that would put up with all this s.hit and still stay by your side! About the 'only guy you love', I don't even know who you mean, but . him! Who cares about guys?! We're gonna be loners together with 69 cats, remember!?! Now you better really listen and read these words over and over again until you get it through your head that I.love.you. and you better not kill yourself!!

This is the quote that I made about it...
Yesterday was the WORST day of my life! My mom and her fiancee got into a HUGE fight last night and when I tried stopping it and calming them down, I got yelled and screamed at and then after a while, my mom left the house and during that time that she was gone, me and her fiancee, John, got into it BIG time! He got in my face and started calling me a b.itch and a s.lut and EVERYTHING you can possibly think of! When my mom got back, I told her she had a choice: him or her kids. Eventually, my mom got REALLY p.issed off and then she started pushing me and punching me in the head for no reason. I started crying because my mom NEVER hits me OR my sister and ever since she got together with this , she's starting to hit me. I went up to my room crying and called my best friend and she told her mom and then her mom called the cops and then 3 officers came to my house and talked to everyone to find out what was going on and I told them that I don't feel safe in my own house anymore because I'm afraid of what is going to happen when I come home, but they said that it'd be up to my mom if I was able to leave the house last night, but she said that I couldn't. I'm no longer allowed to even be friends with my BEST FRIEND because her mom called the cops.. :'( I cried the WHOLE night last night until my big brother came home. I told him everything that went on and he said that he would take care of it because he does NOT like it when somebody hurts me or my sister. He is VERY protective over us! I'm TERRIFIED to go home today after school and take the chance of my brother not being there to protect me.. I'm not asking for sympathy here, but it would REALLY make me feel better if you guys could help me out somehow.. :'(

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Lol. Ik :P

This is so you! http://www.thatssotrue.com/view/That%27s+So+True.com/46530

During my science today xD

I'm sure you did :P