Status: Uni...ew.
Joined: June 1, 2013
Last Seen: 3 days
user id: 361860
Gender: F

This turned into my diary somehow.


I'm still learning new things about myself. I write when I can, I'm sorry for the spam, but not really.

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Quotes by Dudu*

Stick to me like glue, I don't wanna move.
sun could rise and set, but just keep me next to you.
Don't think that it's weird,
I just want to be with you.
n't think that it's weird,
I've come to like you.
I sincerely hope all your dreams come true. I'm kind of a fan of you. Of whatever you do. I hope you're happy for the most part. I wish I could have a bigger part in your life, but I'm happy with where I am. I'm proud of you.
No one's saying anything to me anymore. I know you've heard but you know how I am. You really thought I did this so often, I told you I just felt comfortable so soon with you. I was so open and transparent, I couldn't hide my true intentions, you fell hard but I fell harder. Because no one's saying anything to me anymore. They're just talking amongst themselves. I can hear it all. I wanted to hug you but I felt like I couldn't. Please say something, come back to me. You smiled but you were still unapproachable. So many eyes watching I asked how you were, you stared blankly at me. I'm right here, I'm hurting right here. I really wanted to hug you, hold your hand, anything. No one's the same with me anymore. I hurt more. I look for you, I seek my comfort in you. You opened your arms. Your warm smile was back, I wanted to crash into you with a hug. But everyone's watching, too many eyes watching. You know how I really am. Behind closed doors we can go back to the way we were. But out here, please don't do this to me.

Love me even on the days I hate myself. Love me even when the decisions I make are dumb. Choose to love me when I sabotage myself. Please stay when I tell you to leave. Please don't hate me, when I say I want you to. I say I don't ask for much, but in reality I do. Please stick by me even when I'm being stubborn. I love you and you know that won't change. I hope you'll love me even on those days.

Truthfully I didn't need to go that way. Honestly I, had another motive that day. Truthfully I. Honestly I, just wanted to see you. No other reason, I genuinely just wanted to see you. Truthfully I try my best not to avoid you sometimes, other days I hope I don't run into you. Honestly you don't know the effect you have on me. Truthfully, I'm glad.
The days are long and the night is too short. Working all day then dreaming next to you. Weekends are even shorter than the nights with you. After a long day, you are my hot bath. You are my cosy bed. You are my comfort. After a long day, do you know how nice it is to be with you? I hope it feels like this for you too. The drive home, holding hands, being cringier than cringe, I love moments like that. After a long day. After worrying, working and stressing some more. Waiting in line, sitting behind a desk. Waiting some more, working some more. It all ends with you. Thank you.

I love you, and that's enough.

And I, I like him.
We're often hot and cold, but I like him.
When it matters, he is there. I think I like him.
He is kind, he has kind eyes. He doesn't smile easily,
but he still finds me funny. I didn't even have to try, a few words.
A few words of raw honesty, that's all it took to have him flash his beautiful smile.
I really like him. I think I'm really smitten. His small smile, his laugh. It's so cringey to admit.
Lately I've just lost all my motivation to actively study. I'm only doing the bare minimum which I know is nowhere near enough. I need to get my act together but I'm just so exhausted. I know things will work themselves out and I will eventually get to where I need to be. Just right now I'm sad and stressed. Right now I hate it. I'll be better soon. But the right now. It sucks.
You make me happy when skies are grey. You'll never know dear, how much I love you. Please don't take my sunshine away.