Dudu*

Status: Uni...ew.
Joined: June 1, 2013
Last Seen: 1 week
user id: 361860
Gender: F

This turned into my diary somehow.

 



I'm still learning new things about myself. I write when I can, I'm sorry for the spam, but not really.

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Dudu*'s Favorite Quotes

"Let's meet then. I'll make it better.
Even if it's for a short time at the end of your long day, let's meet." 



As i'm looking into your eyes,
i'm thinking the most
beautiful thoughts.
 

when i started to have a good relationship with food, people stopped calling me beautiful. im not trying to fish, but i kinda miss it. i never hear it anymore, or if i do, i totally filter it out. i hate that i need to feel loved. i know my worth isnt based on what others see...but for some reason it just feels good to be complimented.
             i saw the way you loved others




                                                                   


    i guess i couldn't be loved the same way



                                                                  

i knew it would be hard. it has always been hard. i knew it would take long. i knew it would be like this. i almost regret having any optimism. false hopes. overqualified. underqualified. somewhere in between. overall not good enough. not what we're looking for. goodluck next time. we'll keep it on record, just in case. but at the end of the day it still comes back to not what we're looking for. overqualified. underqualified. "thank you"s in between. a bunch of "not successfuls" and "but"s. am i at the stage where it's still too early to give in? because i really want to. i'm qualified for more rejections and ego blows. unqualified for any good that could come beyond that. good intentions don't mean anything. sounds good or awful on paper. in person can't pull it off. masked in disadvantage. obstacles galore. i will overcome this all one day. i know. but it's always the right now that is hard. and one day is not my life. my life is right now and right now is hard.
let's go for a walk just because. i feel like smiling just because. i want to wake up tomorrow...just because. it's not as bad anymore. i don't sigh when i breathe anymore. i eat to live now. don't have your guard up, there's no particular reason. just because. just because i've met you.
sometimes you dont care that there is a light at the end of the tunnel...you are just tired of being in the tunnel.
I forgot how much I loved to write here







I SEE YOU TRYING TO GET TO ME

 
 
 
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Someone's breath, that heavy sigh. How could I blame you for that?