Status: I am Jordan, I'm nothing more, nothing less than myself. I'm conquring new things and taking a journey with my friends.
Joined: January 7, 2013
Last Seen: 5 years
Birthday: July 2
user id: 345545
Location: Dallas, Texas!
Gender: F
Hi! My name is Jordan. I am currently a junior in highschool.
I'm just an average teenage girl. I love to help out other people. My sophomore year was one of the hardest years in my life. I don't think I really showed you guys how I really was, because I wasn't truly me during that time. I'm sorry for that.

I am 17 years old.
I live in the great state of Texas, born and raised.

I love traveling and I am planning on traveling cross country in the next few summers.
I'm an artist in every sort, I sing, dance, act, paint, write.
I'm a major reader- so send me your stories!
I love talking to people-so message me on my kik -> AwkwardnessIsAwesome
I'm a christian and have been for awhile, but I have no denomination. :P

Just loving on people, and being kind 24/7.

AwkwardnessIsAwesome*'s Favorite Quotes

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Me: I got checked out today. :/
Friend: That's a good thing!
Me: It was by my teacher.
Friend: Oh. xD
Why are my [hair] buns always perfect when I don't need them to be?

I've gotten so used to not being able to see you everyday, so used to it that I can cope and go through days just fine without you here. I can be alone or with friends and I would be happy. But when I suddenly see couples together laughing, looking into each others eyes and smiling, cuddling or even simply holding handsl that's when I feel like breaking down. I try and stay strong every day, I mean that's what I've been doing for all this while but I'm always going to see a couple and wish you were here with me, right next to me. It sucks, it sucks so much that I can't hug, see, just simply be with the person I love so much but this is a decision we both made and I don't regret it, I don't wish I was with someone here, and I don't blame the distance; distance was how we found each other and distance will never separate us emotionally. 
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Everyone keeps saying that they want a "fairytale" wedding,
but when I show up and curse their firstborn suddenly I’m a jerk! XD


I tightly held on to my phone, I thought that if I held it tight, I would quickly feel the vibration from his call.
"Ella?" My mom asked
"You did not hear a word I said." She said
I took a deep breath and shrugged.
"Sorry....I guess." I replied
"You're worried about him, aren't you?" She guessed
I nodded
"I told him to call me when he gets there. Its been like 2 hours and still no reply." I explained
My mom scanned my room and stared at Spencer's make up collection.
"That is ridiculous."  Mom complained
"You're right, I should call Sarah." I said
"Ella, sweetie, I was talking about, Spencer's make up." She explained
"What has gotten into you?" She asked
Michael, mom. Michael has gotten into me. Literally. 
"I'm just worried about him." I answered
"Yeah, you're worried, about your friend." She said
I did not like the way she made quotation marks around the word 'friend'.
"What?" I complained
"Do you honestly expect me to believe that Michael is only your friend?" Mom laughed
"Yes." I said in the most serious tone I could ever put up
"Please, Ella, you can feed those lies to your father, but not me." She aruged
"Well what do you think he is mother?" I asked
"He is your lover." She guessed
I rolled my eyes and laughed.
"Right mom." 
"Please, cut the crappp Ella I know what's going on." She protested
"What made you think that?" I complained
"Gee I don't know, maybe the fact that you arrived with him, or the fact you were holding his hand? Hmmm... maybe its because you haven't stopped staring at your phone for the past 2 hours." 
"I could do all that stuff for a friend." I continued to argue
"Could you french with a friend?" She asked
"That did not happen!" I yelled
"I have a picture." Mother said
"Show me!" I yelled
Her jaw dropped.
"I was right?" 


Growing up I always thought true love was red roses, date nights, little block boxes that held expensive things or little surprises in it and always knowing what to say. I thought true love was a kiss in the rain, deep explanations and the perfect story but now I'm older I have realized it's not like that at all.

See because true love for me is ugly snapchats and peeing while you're on the phone. True love is kissing at 6AM despite the morning breath and singing at the top of your lungs. It's saying all the wrong things, at all the wrong moments. It's sarcasm and being honest even when it hurts. It's late hours of the night when it's been a long day and it's no make up and bad hair. It's tears from laughter and of course it's tears from sadness and it's nothing like any storybook you have ever read. It's never running out of things to talk about and it's being comfortable in the silence of things. True love is watching movies you swore you never would. It's getting mad over stupid things but you know it would never end up in a big dispute. It's "You're an idiot" and knowing you're so lucky to hear those every day. It's spilling and sharing your feelings even when its 3AM and you actually have to sleep. It's that song you hear on the radio that always makes you smile. It's the worst story you could imagine, but thank God that it worked out anyways. True love is never losing the magic. True love is not leaving when things get hard.
I like my definition better anyways.

What I have with him is worth it. It is worth every lonely night,
every tear I cry from missing him, and the pain I feel from not
having him close. It is worth it because he is my one and only.
When I picture myself years from now, I see only him.
No matter how painful distance can be, not having him in
my life at all would be worse.