Status:
Let the physical pain take over the emotional pain.
Joined:
January 2, 2013
Last Seen:
3 years
Birthday:
June 11
user id:
344748
Location:
Boston, MA
Gender:
F
You know that song you dedicated to me? I listen to it everyday. All of your favorite artists? I listen to them too. I listen to all of the songs you love so much because it makes me feel closer to you. Because I've never got the chance to hear your voice, and that kills me. Because I've never got to cuddle up to you and sleep in the same bed as you for a night. Because I don't get to hold your hand everyday and show the world my heart belongs to you. I don't get to press my lips up against yours. Because I don't get to run my hands through your hair and reassure you everything is going to be alright. That you mean everything to me. That you're probably the only reason I didn't do something irrational within the past couple of weeks. Because those are all things I wanna do with you, but it kills me because I can't. But that someone else could. I want to do all of those so badly, but I can't. And I wish I could.. And I don't think you understand how much it kills me inside that you thought I would give up so easily. Because I haven't. And I won't. You come first. Always will.
Please don't take that personally.. at my mom's I don't really have anything to get on the internet with, and I have been piled high with homework, and I've actually got see my sister that I hadn't seen in forever. I've been busy, and I'm sorry that I didn't put as much effort into talking to you as I could have..But I thought you knew it was just a dumb fight I would never give up on you. Actually, I told my sister about you..I showed her pictures. She thought it. Was great I was finally happy. I didn't know you took that fight more seriously than I had. I thought you would still be here when I got back. I didn't think you would have.moved on..
you like 3 hours away from me, I would have taken a train to see you, besides I only thought you gave up because I'm just so use to people giving up on me.
Well, I thought we lived farther away them that. Well I didn't give up. I won't give up. I never really knew what it felt like to have people give up on you until recently and now that I know, I don't want you to ever feel like I would do that to you. I would never, because it's a horrible feeling and you don't deserve to feel like that. I just really miss us.. a whole frickin lot.
Look, I have balled my eyes out and I just wanna go back to before..I miss you so much..I can't handle losing you..I just wanna go back to before we got in a fight.. I just said all of those things out of anger. I didn't mean anything.. I feel hard for you, Emma. I'm not ready to give up. Please, let's just go back to normal.
Well I'm not that kind of person. So thank you for assuming things about me. Because all you did was break my heart. If you would of just asked me I could have told you they were all about you. But you just stopped trusting me. And now look where we are. You're dating some guy, and I'm broken. So thank you.
I'm not that type of person who asks questions, for one because I feel idiotic doing so. Besides the quote was about being played, not trust. You stopped talking to me completely. If you didn't stop talking to me something between use could have happened
I hope you know I wasn't lying when I told you you'd always come first with me.. because I'm still putting you first. That's why I'm crying over they fact you're dating some guy..
It's not like you couldn't have..wrote to me. It works both ways. And please spare me the something could of happened between us. You didn't want anything with me. And that's the sad part, because I want so much with you.
You said you were done with me, that's why I didn't bother. Something could've happened between us. Who know maybe I actually would came down to see you. I wanted you too but you let go.
You made a quote about not trusting me. You had no reason to do that. I understand not trusting someone right off the bat, but putting it out publicly and expecting me to understand why you did it and not be upset.
I know love. But just know hoe many people out there love you, and how amazing you are, whether you find yourself amazing or not. You mean a lot to people.
It's quite stupid but I can't lose him, I really can't. It wasn't even my fault it was my friends but it sort of is mine but yeah. I hope everythings okay tomorrow.
and thank you again, so are you
Thank you!!
So are you :)
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