LoveMeBetterAfterDeath

Status: I worry far too much. Or far too little. It depends on how you look at it.
Joined: April 8, 2013
Last Seen: 8 years
user id: 356209
Gender: F
Let me introduce myself:

My name's Nina - with an 'i' not 'ee'.

I am at peace with life. Likewise with death. 

The two most important people in my life are believed to have depression.
It irritates the hell out of me when people use the word ugly; call themselves socially awkward; or say they are 'sooo deprerssed' about something. They understand non of these things. In saying this, i am not saying that I understand them. I guess nobody does, really.
I hate the word ugly. Nobody on this earth is ugly. We all have good in us. We are all beautiful, and if someone feels the need to call another human being; another amazing, incredible, genius life in this world 'ugly', then they are clearly too self-centred  to see past the fragile tissue and bone that traps our souls.
And if you yourself feel you are ugly, then you are wrong. You are so, so wrong. Because i have been in this world for fifteen years now, and i can honestly say that i have not met ANOYONE that is ugly. You are alive, and that in itself is beautiful.
I have seen what life can do to the most stunning, phenomenal people. How it can wear them down to the point of no return. I don't want that to happen to you.

I get Deja Vu a lot.
My short AND long term memory are both pretty bad.
I am an optimist. Life is good to me.
Tell me you still love me.

"I can't explain myself, I'm afraid, Sir, because I'm not myself you see."

"People needn't worry so much. It's not my time yet. This is not how I go."

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“What a sl/t time is. She screws everybody.”"

"If i'm James Dean, you're Audrey Hepburn"

“It's a metaphor, see: You put the killing thing right between your teeth, but you don't give it the power to do its killing.”

"I shall say you will die and none will remember you"

He tells me i am his Marla Singer. I am still at a loss as to what this means.


Watch this: http://youtu.be/XCoFoKvfc6Y

Asleep by The Smiths.
 Listen and enjoy.

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Quotes by LoveMeBetterAfterDeath

I used to come here daily, and then I'd delete all evidence that I'd come on here, just in case any memeber of my family found out. I don't think I'll ever understand why this place was so important to me. I think it was because I could just be who I wanted when I came here, and I liked that freedom. Whenever I logged on, I'd see an old member saying "I remember the good old days where there were really great people and good quotes and you'd get hundreds of likes on one thing". Well, I was never around for that. I was always classed as a new member. But now, I can see where those people were coming from. Witty used to be my salvation. Right now, it just doesn't seem right.
What happened to MY Witty?
I miss it.
Wow, Witty's changed. How long have I been gone?
So my new school backpack has Jake the Dog from Adventure Time on it.
A popular boy commented on it today.
Here is our conversation:


Him: That's a weird looking bag. What the hell even is that?!
Me: Jake... From Adventure Time?
Him: What the f*ck is Adventure Time?
Me: Explodes.
I have cleansed my soul over the Summer, and have gone back to school with absolutely no hatred or annoyance towards anyone.
I won't talk about anyone behind their backs, and I will take time to make the effort with people.
Yeah.
What even is beauty? Beauty is staying up all night thinking about all your flaws. Beauty is starving yourself until you look like those girls in the movies. Beauty is forever wishing you were someone else. Beauty is having a thigh-gap. Beauty is making yourself sick so you don't put on any more weight. Beauty is checking each packet for the amount of calories inside. Beauty is drinking gallons of diet coke so you feel full. Beauty is not believing what others say when they tell you you're already beautiful. Beauty is listening to that person who says 'maybe'. Beauty is hurting. Beauty is scars. Beauty is not getting to be yourself because you don't know who you are anymore. Beauty is not asking for help but having to take it. Beauty is a lifetime of secrets. Beauty is bullsh/t.

Beauty is what we live by.
And if I ever let you down,
Well I'm sorry.
When you're different, sometimes you don't see the millions of people who accept you for what you are. All you notice is the person who doesn't.

- Jodie Picoult, Change of Heart
When I got enough confidence, the stage was gone. When I was sure of losing, I won. When I needed people the most, they left me. When I learnt to dry my tears, I found a shoulder to cry on. And when I mastered the art of hating, somebody started loving me.

- William Shakespeare
I hurt because you hurt, because you have no reason to consider yourself any less than beautiful.