The two most important people in my life are believed to have depression.
It irritates the hell out of me when people use the word ugly; call themselves socially awkward; or say they are 'sooo deprerssed' about something. They understand non of these things. In saying this, i am not saying that I understand them. I guess nobody does, really.
I hate the word ugly. Nobody on this earth is ugly. We all have good in us. We are all beautiful, and if someone feels the need to call another human being; another amazing, incredible, genius life in this world 'ugly', then they are clearly too self-centred to see past the fragile tissue and bone that traps our souls.
And if you yourself feel you are ugly, then you are wrong. You are so, so wrong. Because i have been in this world for fifteen years now, and i can honestly say that i have not met ANOYONE that is ugly. You are alive, and that in itself is beautiful.
I have seen what life can do to the most stunning, phenomenal people. How it can wear them down to the point of no return. I don't want that to happen to you.
I get Deja Vu a lot.
My short AND long term memory are both pretty bad.
I am an optimist. Life is good to me.
Tell me you still love me.
"I can't explain myself, I'm afraid, Sir, because I'm not myself you see."
"People needn't worry so much. It's not my time yet. This is not how I go."
"“What a sl/t time is. She screws everybody.”"
"If i'm James Dean, you're Audrey Hepburn"
“It's a metaphor, see: You put the killing thing right between your teeth, but you don't give it the power to do its killing.”
"I shall say you will die and none will remember you"
He tells me i am his Marla Singer. I am still at a loss as to what this means.
Nothing is normal. You just don't go out of your way to brag about being weird and obnoxious. Girls just do it to seem cute and get attention. There's nothing wrong with being average, but I'm sure you're not. You're just not obnoxious.
All time favs are
F.uckin Perfect ~ P!nk
Backwards ~Matthias
OTHERS
Miserable at Best ~ Mayday Parade
Killer ~ The Ready Set
Boomerang ~ The Summer Set
Distance ~ Secondhand Serenade
The only difference in Martyrdom and Suicide is Press Coverage ~Panic! At the Disco
People like us ~ Kelly Clarkson
Angel with a shotgun ~ The Cab
Crazy ~ Hunter Hayes
most songs by Jimmy Buffet
um
Clarity ~ ZEDD
and
True Love ~ P!nk
ya i like majority of genres and music so i listen to everything i gave you more songs that i listn to a lot rather than my favorite but i really like these songs so ya sorry for wasting your time lol :) just thought i would put my taste of music out there if you were interested
Too this quote... Errr..... Nevermind.... I'm silly....lol... BOTTOM GET HERE now!
Bottom: what do you want?
Me: get Porc
Bottom:get him yourself
Me: PORC
Porc:,master?
Me: do you have the postion?
Porc: yessss
Me: can you make her forget what's happened, please?
Porc: yes master Orbiron! Wait who?
Me: lovemebetterafterdeath...
Porc: ooghhh why?
Me: I said something embarrassing...
Porc: hahahhahahahahhahHhHahahahhahahahaha
Me: porc!
Porc: hahahhahahahhaa
Yup. All of my boys have left me for my best friend. I just hope she doesn't meet my current one. He's the one I definitely don't wanna lose. Ya know?? You love them and all, but it gets annoying doesn't it??
Thank goodness you haven't witnessed someone die... It's awful. I've seen them die and I've seen them stop living but go on as a livingdead. It's terrible both ways and I hope you never have to witness it
Yeah, I have my summer Vac, and no, I don't live in the US, at least not anymore though, I live in Lebanon, the tiny country in the Middle East -__- And yeah, my mom tripped on a ramp and skinned her knee badly. So badly she needed stitches and bed-rest....so yep, I'm wasting the first month of my SV at home, caring for a nagging mother XD
Vacation is such a cool word! Wow, what's it like there? Whoo, sounds like super fun!:L hope she get's better fast! How long you off for? And you know, the usual;) still at school so yay -_-
Well, if you're a tourist, Lebanon has lovely beaches and amazing tour sights. But if you live there, then all you get to do is stay home or go to the shopping centers :C not much to do anyways...
And wow, I hate school. I have to go back on Friday for correcting our Math exams -.- I have my vacation for about 3 months, I think.
Nah, I'm just a freshman in high school, and in my high school the freshman get to finish earlier before any of the others :D And 6 weeks?! Dang, that seriously sucks
America is pretty awesome considering I've been living in lebanon for at least 5 years...but yeah, it's still awesome. And well, my parents are together, but my dad has to travel back to the U.S. for business trips. He took my older bro last year and he let him stay there for 1 month in the summer with him. Lucky jerk XP
i can imagine how that feels :/ have had similar situations. If your beating yourself up about not realising, or not knowing, just remember that seriously we are teenagers and young people and we have developing a thousand and one ways to hide what we want to from the rest of the world, especially the people we love.
But what you need to remember is it's not about the fact you didn;t know, its about what you do KNOW. Just giving her that support and acceptance and love that will give her the confidence to love herself again to love herself again, and it will make the scars fade inside. That's the most important thing ... when there are no scars inside, she'll stop needing to make them outside. It will help, trust me.
Take care :) xx
I'm nearly in tears. You don't actually realise how much of an impact your comment just had on me. It sounds stupid, but it's as though i have just realised that i'm not alone, and i needed that. Thank you so much. xx
:) seriously, it's fine. that's what life is all about ... learning to love with a bleeding heart. its the only decent thing we humans can do, right?
sorry to go all deep on you :/
take care! and remember, it's fine. anymore problems, comment aannyy time. i mean it :) x
Weird is normal. Normal is weird.
Say you like me ~we the kings
and
IM not in Love ~ The Academy is...
so ya toodles :)
F.uckin Perfect ~ P!nk
Backwards ~Matthias
OTHERS
Miserable at Best ~ Mayday Parade
Killer ~ The Ready Set
Boomerang ~ The Summer Set
Distance ~ Secondhand Serenade
The only difference in Martyrdom and Suicide is Press Coverage ~Panic! At the Disco
People like us ~ Kelly Clarkson
Angel with a shotgun ~ The Cab
Crazy ~ Hunter Hayes
most songs by Jimmy Buffet
um
Clarity ~ ZEDD
and
True Love ~ P!nk
ya i like majority of genres and music so i listen to everything i gave you more songs that i listn to a lot rather than my favorite but i really like these songs so ya sorry for wasting your time lol :) just thought i would put my taste of music out there if you were interested
hazy by rosi golan
lisztomania, lasso, 1901 by pheonix
The memory by mayday parade
Hearts and flowers-saywecanfly
Say you like me-we the kings :)
Bottom: what do you want?
Me: get Porc
Bottom:get him yourself
Me: PORC
Porc:,master?
Me: do you have the postion?
Porc: yessss
Me: can you make her forget what's happened, please?
Porc: yes master Orbiron! Wait who?
Me: lovemebetterafterdeath...
Porc: ooghhh why?
Me: I said something embarrassing...
Porc: hahahhahahahahhahHhHahahahhahahahaha
Me: porc!
Porc: hahahhahahahhaa
And wow, I hate school. I have to go back on Friday for correcting our Math exams -.- I have my vacation for about 3 months, I think.
And yup, same here. You have ages off though! We have about 6 weeks at most! Are you going to college or uni or something?
But what you need to remember is it's not about the fact you didn;t know, its about what you do KNOW. Just giving her that support and acceptance and love that will give her the confidence to love herself again to love herself again, and it will make the scars fade inside. That's the most important thing ... when there are no scars inside, she'll stop needing to make them outside. It will help, trust me.
Take care :) xx
sorry to go all deep on you :/
take care! and remember, it's fine. anymore problems, comment aannyy time. i mean it :) x