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i'm erikka. nothing more, nothing less. i've gone through a lot, and it doesn't help half the time. i'm a little piece of different to everyone i've ever known. i draw inspiratation from music, and it's what helps me. i don't care what people think of me, there not me, and they're probably wrong, so that's the end of it. people have walked all over me, and it will not happen again. i can't stand people who think they're fricking all that. but stupid people, they just annoy the shit out of me. i would just like to hurt them. i'm not a very violent person, just more violent than the average person. i believe life isn't about finding yourself, it's about creating yourself. & at this point, i'm an abstract painting because no one knows who or where i am anymore. randomly i'll walk off, and come back hours later from basically no where. i have mood swings like there's no tomorrow. i will say i love you and then randomly i'll start yelling at you. it's funny to the people who can keep up with me, but others it really isn't. i'm changing everyday, i'm not the same as i was yesterday, and i'm not the same as i'll be tomorrow. i'm kinda like odd. i'm fascinated by the human body, i think the grossest things are extremely cool. i don't get grossed out over anything, literally. i'll be honest with you, no matter what. sometimes it isn't good, and sometimes it is. i'm upfront, and i will tell you like it is. i tell people everything. i believe their should be no secrets in the world, because it's those little things that makes us who we are. i wear a lot of makeup, and i look sick if i don't. i'm very aware of that, my father has told me repeatedly i wear a lot of makeup. i don't really care at this point. i have a love for writing. it's the only thing other than music that can relax me. i've written several stories that are all hidden among places. i gave up on religion a long time ago, i'm going to believe science over some book. god died for people, well a lot of people die for others. it's called war. i know who my true friends are, and the one's that aren't well fuck them all. i make huge decisions everyday. and i hate making them. i never know what would have come out of it if i chose the other decision, which is what bugs me. i get called retarded, mental, insane, etc, everyday but that's how i am. it all ties in with my moods. most of my life, people have left, so i've been taught to not get attached, but i still do. i'm not racist but i do judge people. i judge everyone, and then it always changes. i know i shouldn't, but i do. i find many people immature, and it pisses me off. i sleep a lot, it makes me happy and my dreams usually aren't good. if you tell me about a scary movie i've seen i'll start to picture things, and i'll believe their there. which creeps me out, leading to my dreams. i space out a lot, and usually i'm thinking. i think way too much, and that's the other thing about my moods. i get pissed in a matter of seconds, and then i'll be pissed at the world no matter what. i have trust issues, i can't trust many people because i know humans, and they like to talk. i give second chances, i believe everyone should have one and if they screw up, just look at your life, you screw up too. i think drama is what makes the world go round, because we learn a lesson from it, and without fighting, they're can't be love. i love who i've become and then again i hate it. i'm uncontrollable, and that's what makes people laugh. i love to make people laugh, and it's pretty much what i do best. i desire transformation, it's just one step closer to wherever we're going in life. i try to be nice, and i care about a lot of people. i can't imagine myself hurting them, so i don't. i don't believe in happy endings, or anything along those lines, there's always some or a lot of bad in every situation. it seems whatever you do now a days, there's always something to come back and taunt you. even if it's good. i swim like it's my effing job. most of the time i'm swimming or wishing i was. swimming is my time to break away from the world, and think. i haven't done everything i have done for swimming for anything. i've done everything to become the best in swimming, and i'm still on my way. i live to swim, and i swim to live. to hell with being perfect, i'm the complete opposite.
LionLayouts <3i'm erikka. nothing more, nothing less. i've gone through a lot, and it doesn't help half the time. i'm a little piece of different to everyone i've ever known. i draw inspiratation from music, and it's what helps me. i don't care what people think of me, there not me, and they're probably wrong, so that's the end of it. people have walked all over me, and it will not happen again. i can't stand people who think they're fricking all that. but stupid people, they just annoy the shit out of me. i would just like to hurt them. i'm not a very violent person, just more violent than the average person. i believe life isn't about finding yourself, it's about creating yourself. & at this point, i'm an abstract painting because no one knows who or where i am anymore. randomly i'll walk off, and come back hours later from basically no where. i have mood swings like there's no tomorrow. i will say i love you and then randomly i'll start yelling at you. it's funny to the people who can keep up with me, but others it really isn't. i'm changing everyday, i'm not the same as i was yesterday, and i'm not the same as i'll be tomorrow. i'm kinda like odd. i'm fascinated by the human body, i think the grossest things are extremely cool. i don't get grossed out over anything, literally. i'll be honest with you, no matter what. sometimes it isn't good, and sometimes it is. i'm upfront, and i will tell you like it is. i tell people everything. i believe their should be no secrets in the world, because it's those little things that makes us who we are. i wear a lot of makeup, and i look sick if i don't. i'm very aware of that, my father has told me repeatedly i wear a lot of makeup. i don't really care at this point. i have a love for writing. it's the only thing other than music that can relax me. i've written several stories that are all hidden among places. i gave up on religion a long time ago, i'm going to believe science over some book. god died for people, well a lot of people die for others. it's called war. i know who my true friends are, and the one's that aren't well fuck them all. i make huge decisions everyday. and i hate making them. i never know what would have come out of it if i chose the other decision, which is what bugs me. i get called retarded, mental, insane, etc, everyday but that's how i am. it all ties in with my moods. most of my life, people have left, so i've been taught to not get attached, but i still do. i'm not racist but i do judge people. i judge everyone, and then it always changes. i know i shouldn't, but i do. i find many people immature, and it pisses me off. i sleep a lot, it makes me happy and my dreams usually aren't good. if you tell me about a scary movie i've seen i'll start to picture things, and i'll believe their there. which creeps me out, leading to my dreams. i space out a lot, and usually i'm thinking. i think way too much, and that's the other thing about my moods. i get pissed in a matter of seconds, and then i'll be pissed at the world no matter what. i have trust issues, i can't trust many people because i know humans, and they like to talk. i give second chances, i believe everyone should have one and if they screw up, just look at your life, you screw up too. i think drama is what makes the world go round, because we learn a lesson from it, and without fighting, they're can't be love. i love who i've become and then again i hate it. i'm uncontrollable, and that's what makes people laugh. i love to make people laugh, and it's pretty much what i do best. i desire transformation, it's just one step closer to wherever we're going in life. i try to be nice, and i care about a lot of people. i can't imagine myself hurting them, so i don't. i don't believe in happy endings, or anything along those lines, there's always some or a lot of bad in every situation. it seems whatever you do now a days, there's always something to come back and taunt you. even if it's good. i swim like it's my effing job. most of the time i'm swimming or wishing i was. swimming is my time to break away from the world, and think. i haven't done everything i have done for swimming for anything. i've done everything to become the best in swimming, and i'm still on my way. i live to swim, and i swim to live. to hell with being perfect, i'm the complete opposite.